Do you remember the first night I sang to you?
When you first laced your fingers with mine?
..Our first kiss?
Do you remember when I knocked on your door with flowers?
Do you remember the first time I handed you a black envelope with a poem written for your eyes only?
The first time waking up with your head on my chest?
I remember... oh so vividly..
I didn't think I could hurt anymore
Then I finally ran into you
You brought meaning into my life.
You gave me a reason to want to rush out of bed when I awoke.
All of the troubles that held me back
My pulse came back
My smile returned.
Friends could see I was actually smiling.
The sun couldn't even radiate the warmth I possessed.
Then you walked away..
And I found myself struck with this all too familiar pain again.
That's what I hear.
That's what I believe..
That's all I feel.
That's all I receive.
Teeth.... and talons..
They sink deep
Not the first time.
Just deeper than before.
Across my skin
I bled only the first time
Only scars remain.
Tears don't break anymore
Not as often
But when they do..
..Oh, how hard do they break...
Another Fall fast approaching
Time hasn't slowed down
..Spring was such a blur..
It won't be just the leaves turning
And falling this year.
I don't know if my heart can fall
Any further than it has.
Broken and bruised
Laying in pieces on the ground.
.....I think I'll just leave it there this time...
I still think about you,
And haven't stopped
I know you're still weathering your storms.
Those clouds will pass.
I've learned enough to know
You've overcome such dark
And heavy clouds before.
As much as I wholeheartedly
Would love to see a relationship
Blossom between us..
I understand that may very well not be in the future.
Simply put, I don't want to see a future
Where you are not in it.
Even if that blossoming only goes as far
As a gentle friendship..
..You'll always be worth the wait to me..