Even though you weren't half true
I saw something in you
That made me to want to stay.
They are a part of you, those scars,
No denying that, how can there be?
You are not alone though, never alone,
and there is no shame, not one iota.
Any who judge you, find you lacking,
Are not worthy of your time, nope!
They will never understand; never!
Just accepting it that it happens,
Just like it might rain tomorrow.
Accept yourself and learn, love,
Find ways to cope, to push through,
Know that you are all right, yes?
They are a part of you, those scars,
No denying that, how can there be?

So **** confused
Not sure what to think
What to do...
I have too many emotions.
I'm way out of my mind.
The words I speak one day.
The next, I leave 'em behind.

What's up with the world today.
Really, what's up with everything.
Everyone's gone crazy.
The world needs to start accepting.

People need to realize.
The world is full of difference.

People come in our lives, sometimes they go.
Like waves...
Sometimes they stay longer, like the big waves.
Other times, they stay for a shorter time, like smaller ones.
That's why,
You have to keep moving forward
And try not to get too attached to them
Or
You will drown.

Someone never came, but something did happen.
I got tired of waiting, so I started to move.
I couldn't.
There were chains all over my body.
I started screaming at the top of my lungs, but no one heard.
I felt hopeless, and desperate.
I was angry and afraid.
Amidst all of these, I heard a whisper. The voice spoke louder,

Let go, child, just let go.

I was too confused and afraid.
The biding of the chains was too tight.
I realized that most of weight of the chains was in my hands.
I was the one holding the chains that trapped me.
I let go of the chains that bound my body.
Slowly, I freed myself from everything that stopped me from being happy.

Be free now, child. Do your best and never give up. Let go and let me handle everything. It said.
Joy and triumph filled my heart.
I was free.
I was alive. And all I had to do was let go.

Its been a month when I start not talking to you,
I always tell myself,
I will forget you, yes, I can.
Yes I forgot my feelings for you.
But then, I saw that picture again with that person,
I start hating myself,
Why did I still had this feeling?
I feel jealous.
Seeing that picture,
I don't know what to do anymore.
I think my feeling for you will be forever.

Sometimes in my tears I drown.
Like drops of a heavy rain.
They fall, hitting the ground,
No matter how much it hurts,
I know that these tears will help,

I will keep going,
and this will not last for long.

To deny I love you.
Would be like denying my name?
Everything about you impresses me.

Your attitude.
And even your changing mood.

To deny I love you.
Is like denying the truth.
So I admit.
I love everything about you.

Do you care if I don't know what to say?
Just lie in y arms and forget that which troubles your mind,
I see the unspoken feelings you keep inside,
I want to chase away all your fears,
And allow you to be the person that I see inside you,
All my hopes, fears, and innermost feelings I have placed in you.
Please, just stay in my arms forever.
Have I fallen in too deep?
So many things are uncertain,
Never leave me,
Never let me go,
Show me my faults,
What is this feeling that causes me to shake?

I tried so hard. I tried my best.
I gave you my all, and now there's nothing left.
You stole my heart, then tore it in two.
Now I'm falling apart, and don't know what to do.
Blinded by fear, drowning in doubt.
Struggling to be free, looking for a way out.

I will always remember to forget the things that made me sad,
But I will never forget to remember the things that made me glad.
I will always remember those friends that have stuck by me.
Now, I will find my true happiness.

Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't?
Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn't?
You fall deeper with each passing day.
But try to hide it in every possible way.
Just a friend, and nothing else.
That's the lie you keep telling yourself.
You keep on saying just a buddy,
But deep inside you're falling in love.

But how long will you pretend?
Keep lying that, just a friend?
Perhaps it's wrong.
Your friendship can't be risked over this,
So being her girl is an impossible wish.

Life is rough, life is tough.
Life is complex but becomes simple when you don't compete.
Own a style. and see it to the end.
And devotion will bring you success.

Don't hide your potentials for fear of failure; please let the, fly.
And on wings as eagle your spirit, in confidence will forever soar high.
Be ready to take corrections though; it's sure worth the try.
Success comes when you endure.

After so many years of loving you,
After so many things we've been through,
Still I couldn't find the reason,
Tell me why am I in so much love with you?

You've given me a reason
For smiling once again,
You've filled my life with peaceful dreams
and you've become my closest friend.

You've shared your heartfelt secrets
And your trust you've given me,
You showed me how to feel again
To laugh, and love, and see.

I might yell at you at times. I might get jealous. I have erratic mood swings. I am utterly stubborn. But I know you can handle me at my worst and I will probably listen to you. I promise you that if I give you my heart it will stay with you forever. I'll never cheat on you and be utterly honest. I'll be always holding your hand through good and bad times in our life. I'll love you with all my heart and soul. I will be faithful to you I'll do anything I can to hold our relationship together till eternity. Promise me that you will never ever leave me alone.

Secret Passions
Secret Desires
Hiding behind the curtain
But this is happening for certain
No one can know
No one can understand
This will be the end of us
But we still give it the just
All we have
All we can do
Every word I might say
Every Melody I might sing
They are all for you

My secret
The secret

I want you to know
something I'm trying to hide
the way that I love you
is stuck bottled up inside.

I want to tell you
exactly how I feel
and that my feelings
are completely real.

I want to tell you
that I truly do
love you with all that I am
this is the truth.

I hide this feeling
only because I know
you don't feel the same
and I can't let you go.

I don't tell you this
for many reasons
but mainly because
my friendship with you
is too important
to ruin by three words.
I love you!

I love you more than the sun,
and the starts that I taught how to shine,
you are mine, and you shine for me too.
I love you yesterday, and today and tomorrow,
ill say it again and again,
I love you more...

I look into your eyes
My heart starts to race
My breathing rapidly increases
My body’s in a state
Yet …
I’m in heaven!

What is happening to me?
It feels as if I'm losing my mind
Do I take this chance at love?
Or do I run and hide?

You’re in my thoughts day and night
I’m fighting these feelings with every ounce inside
Knowing very well that I have plenty to hide

But you see right through
No wall too thick or too tall
I feel vulnerable
I feel bare

How I long for your touch
For the safe haven you provide
When you wrap your arms around me

I am falling for you
Falling hard and fast
It feels as though I’m looking at this
From one dizzy height
A mixture of excitement & fear
Whenever you are near

Here I am, take my hand
For I am fragile & scared
I’m putting all my trust in you
For I have fallen …
I have fallen for you!

And
all of the sudden I felt
really tired
Like the world had drained me
for everything that
I had.

You've shed tears on my shoulder,
you've made me laugh and smile,
You've picked me up from every single low,
If ever I'm in trouble, it's your number I dial,
It makes my feelings battle, to and fro,
We treat each other soundly, like family some would say,
For you, I'd simply take that fatal shot,
I'd never ask the question, just move right in the way,
Yet emotions, sure of them I'm simply not,
I always sat and wondered: what if we could be more?
What if I'd taken one more giant leap?
In honesty, confusion, I think it closed the door,
And now it's left me but a ****** heap,
I see you as a sister, and that's how it should be,
I don't want our relationship to end,
For we were never lovers, and now it's dawned to me,


**You're always better to me as a friend.

I think it can be fun to be single and date-like when you don't want a relationship. Or when you've just gotten out of a relationship, and, after get over the initial shock, your thinking, Hey, it's kind of cool being single.  Being single is happy. We all deserve to be happy.

Some people doesn't
           know the true
                                    meaning of the word

                                                                                                      WORTH.

What a loser he/she must be,
Finding a new purpose in life,
Breaking borders, killing strife,
Trying things they never tried.

It is then that I see,
That not a loser they must be,
For no longer they're part of me,
The loser is indeed me.

You made me smile
You made me laugh
You made me blush
You made me forget all my problems
You made me feel better about myself
You're the reason why I'm happy


         but, little did I know,
  that the reason for my happiness
                  could also be the reason for why


   **I am broken

My mind is spinning,
I'm so depressed and weak,
I want to say why,
But I cant even speak.

Tired of fighting,
Not wanting to give up,
I want to be strong,
But I'm not that tough.

It's crazy how you once called me baby
crazy how everything has gone hazy
And crazy how I can't breath without shaking

It's funny how you once said you loved me
Funny how everything is hanging by a tee
And funny how I can't shake this wanton feeling to just be

I have been wildly enthused about gaming since I was younger, and a career path I chose not to go down but did really consider was getting into programming and game design.

All I know is that I feel pain

In every part of my body

And the worst part is that

I know it won't go away

Until I stop loving you

And I vowed to never stop loving you.

She's  flirting with a boy
for the sole reason
that she is desperately lonely
and she want the attention
that he is so willing to give her
she's flirting with a boy
because it makes her feel wanted
and that is a feeling
that you forgot to give her
long ago
she's flirting with a boy
and she think he'll break his heart
not because she want to
but because you do not want her.

You expect me to
Sit here and take it
I sat there for years
Waiting for you
To grow up in some way
I know it’s there
Somewhere
But not here
Not now
So yell and scream
I just won’t listen
Anymore

In plight of loving you,
I bleed,
And willingly surrender my self to death.
But my heart is entangled with yours,
But I have to depart now.

Im not giving you away,
it's just that,
someone really deserves you, my friend.

I have given all my love to you, but what do I get in return?
A broken heart.
I gave you my life and you killed me day by day.
I want to pull my aching heart and tear it piece by piece, So I no longer love you.
I want to loose my memory so I no longer think of you.
I want to go so far so I no longer have to see you.
I want to cry but I no longer have any more tears to fall down
my sad lonely face.
I want to sleep but my dreams haunt me with you in them.
I can't seem to find a way out. What do I do?
How do I get out of this?
How do I stop this misery? How do solve this mystery?
I can't seem to find anyone to make feel the way you do,
The way you look at me,
the way you say my name,
the sound of your voice when you tell me that you care.
I love you so much I think I'm going to die from this pain that haunts day and night.
How can forget you? If the only love I know is you.
How can I move on? If life is not the same with out you.
I want to brake free and move on but I think I'll be doing something wrong.
I just have to close my eyes and let things fly and let the days pass me by.

I want to cry
I want to scream
I want to tell you mostly
I hate that I'm so afraid of everything
I hate that you're the one thing I want the most but can't have.
I wish I were strong enough to say no to you
I wish I could believe my own lies I use to cover up the pain you left
I need to move on says my head
I need to hold on says my heart
I need to decide says my mind
I want to hurt you
I want to be with you
I want this nightmare to be over
I wish I could make things they were before you
I wish I could change time
I wish I could change you
I wish I could have hurt you before you hurt me
I need you out of my thoughts
I need you out of my heart
I need to start doing things for me
I hate that I gave you something I can never have back
I hate that I wasted it with you
I'm tired of hoping aimlessly for you
I'm tired of wanting something I can't have
I'm tired of hurting me for things that aren't my fault
Funny though how you never once said sorry for hurting me,
for breaking me,
for not loving me

wishing things had never changed.


when you get what you want,



but not what you need.

I don't know why. Why am I still thinking of you. Why am I still concerned. Why I still care. Can't fall asleep thinkin' of you. When you get mad, I don't know what to do. Long ago, we're like bestfriends, so close to each other, talked everyday, no secrets, having a good time, and lots of memories. But now, I am just a "Friend" to you. A FRIEND! Hoping someday, we can go back to the way we used to be.

There are a very few things that anger me, they assume noth­ing makes me angry. Just because I am cheer­ful, I am not allowed to feel low. Just because I am less often seen in a bad mood, they assume noth­ing can spoil it. I don’t react to every­thing that hap­pens around me, they assume I have no opin­ions whatsoever. I am not harsh on any­one, they assume I am meek. I don’t pun­ish, they assume I can’t. I for­give, they assume I forget. I don’t brood over the past, they assume I am ‘blessed’ with mem­ory loss.

When I come across peo­ple assum­ing things about me, I try not to lose heart and tell myself, they are doing the eas­i­est thing they can do, which is ‘assum­ing’. Assum­ing is equiv­a­lent to not under­stand­ing. Those who fail to under­stand, either because they are unable to or because they don’t want to, are the ones who assume.

**So, don't judge me.

I don't want new cool stuffs.
I want to spend time with you.
I want to walk with you.
I want to count the starts at night with you.
I want to watch the sunset with you.
I want to hold your hands in public.
I want you to be proud of me.
I just want you here.
This love is true,
you must know that.
All I want is you.
Only you, *bae.

Im jealous

Jealous that I
wasn't the  one

Jealous
of  something that wasn't mine

It was all  just  my mind
playing tricks on me

Dear me
So foolish to think it was me
I should have  known

Now my heart's breaking,
cracking, splitting into 2.

And im
still
jealous.
Yep. I still do.