A low mumble vibrates through my teeth and off of my lips
You ask me what I said
I say "Nothing."

I can't properly get things off of my chest, because I don't have any idea how to speak to people
If only I could just take five minutes to jot down my thoughts every time someone wanted to interact with me

This is why I stay in my hole
My safe haven
My shell

I know being me is tolerated here

Out there, the words shake around through the air in such muffled sounds, I can't breathe

Out there, I get wrapped up into a sticky web of messes with all the other flies as we awkwardly converse, knowing soon we're gonna die

Out there, I get sent around on a paper airplane so poorly crafted that I crash into a cardboard mountain and drown in a brutal bathtub sea

My voice stays safely tucked inside my poetry
And the only ones who hear it don't really know what it sounds like

We're in a car going twenty too fast on the highway, and I don't know where we're headed. Maybe the headlights will take us to a home where we've never lived or maybe somewhere where the flames aren't as shallow. Rain has been beating the windows for at least four hours, and I can almost see lightning through all the cigarette smoke. He says that he can see clearer than ever. I swear ever since the radio lost signal, I've basically been able to hear the stardust in every shallow breath he takes.  I can't believe all it took was a broken radio to see him for the kind of words he was meant to be. The kind that rip apart a person's heart when they finally read them the way they were always meant to be read. His name is just a noise, and his face is only skin, but the fault lines etched into his bones make me want to believe there are more earthquakes inside him than he thinks. He makes me want to believe there's something more to life than his fingers wrapping themselves around mine as the car wraps itself around a tree.

We're never going to get anywhere if we keep following the map you insist knows the way
Just take my hand and let the grass guide us by the direction the wind pushes it

Don't listen to your brain, listen to the creek behind the web of trees as it's telling us where the wildflowers lead

Listen to the birds as they sing to each other in perfect harmony

Listen to my eyes as they tell you all the things I've ever lived, ever seen

Listen to your heart, and tell your brain to shut up

Everything we need to know is right here between us

We have all the answers we'll ever need

So stop seeking, and come listen to the world with me

Tonight,
The mahjiang tables went silent.

Tonight,
The barbeque didn’t taste as swell.

Tonight,
Old mothers huddled and hugged their children.

And tonight,
Not a firework’d be heard.

Tonight,
He’d betrayed her.

Tonight,
She’d never let go.

Tonight,
Crimson could only answer.

Tonight,
She’d live.

And tonight,
He wouldn’t.

*There was a ****** just down the block tonight; guess I'm a tad guilty of gossip? You be the judge.

i think i saw you, and just the mere thought of you being there made me lose my breath,
and i realize i still want you for the bad, the good and the ugly.

i'm not much of a prayer but i'll pray for one last conversation, one last touch, one last kiss,
one last i love you.

I'm craving a new reality
My life isn't what I thought it would be
It's not the worst
However it's not the best
I know it could be so much more

I'm craving a new dream
My ambitions aren't what I thought they would be
They aren't that unrealistic
But something is definitely missing
I really would like to further explore

I'm craving a new confidence
My self-esteem isn't as high as it should be
It's not like I hate myself
But I know I'm not at my best
I really want to be something more

I'm craving a new heart
My love isn't as pure as it could be
I don't have hate in my soul
But my past, I haven't let it go
I hope that real love will find me

There are so many things in this world I can't stand
I look around, and my brain rearranges
But somehow, when you reach out and sweetly grab my hand
Some part of me in that moment changes

The bitterness turns so sweet as you kiss me
The darkness fades into a brilliant light
All the hatred in my body is then set free
And I'm just left with feelings far too bright

The pain disintegrates fast while you hold me
The parts of me that died rise from the dead
I keep a box of every word you've told me
Do you hold onto the secrets that I've said?

you hurt me
you are the moon that controls
the tides of my eyes

you are a dark moon
with thousands of craters,
thousands of imperfections

i have imperfections too,
but the difference is:
i think you hate me while
i love you