I am not okay today

I've been underwater
about five beats longer
than I would like
Starving for air
yet my lungs
are already full

My vision blurry
Fragments and flashes
of life
and light
and darkness

I am not okay today
For no reason at all
I am not okay

But I will be.

you make me think
that it's all been worth it.
all the drama, all the frustration,
all the tears at 2am
because he didn't love me back.
you make me think
that all my patience is being rewarded,
with this beautiful, amazing boy
who loves me for everything i am,
and everything i am not.
thank you,
for touching me with your words
before your hands.
thank you
for making it all worth it.
-a.c.b

i am not a helpless girl
drowning is a sea
of her own sadness
but i have been holding my breath
for too many years
my eyes sting
my ears are popping
my lungs are collapsing from the pressure

please
let me breath

s.s