So as we sat in the pews of your wooden home
And laughed at the lines that broke our bones
We kissed between the words that told us no
What else could we do to fill the holes

It's your forbidden touch that I want the most
it's your distant glare that touches close
Oh your smile, I'd love to boast
Secret love where no one knows

i wanna feel something so bad that i run my bath water scorching
imagining i am a vegetable floating around in a *** of boiling water
its purpose is set but where is mine?
i bask in the water for hours
why pry my body from the comforting, familiar pain?
maybe i'll spend my days wasted away in the beautiful nothingness of pretty glass liquor bottles and designer drugs.
if not that then what
why pry my body from this warm tangled bed?
why love
why hate?
why try
why anything at all

oh for this world is just an empty world of "why"

Why are my feet so **** cold?
My head is feeling dull
The glass sure isn’t half full
How do I stop from growing old?
Shaky hands, cancelled plans
I’m so sick of feeling gray

I struggle to tie my shoelaces today
You don't hesitate to swoop in and double knot my sneakers so perfectly

Only the way you could.

I loved getting lost in lavender skies and mansions with you

Only if it was real.

So many people
Blowing up my phone
Yet somehow
I still feel so alone