You never know what you have, until it's lost.
Enjoy the Holidays, Enjoy every bit of the family, friends, and happiness you can get.
It is something that should be cherished and treasured forever, because it won't last for eternity. Hold onto what you can, let go what you must let go. Some gifts are meant to be passed on, meant to be shared. Others are meant to be kept to yourself. Take time and reflect to see which ones in your life are which. Its a tough decision, but in the end, you will feel so much better. Plus, always remember there are people everywhere that will help wrap your present, whether you want them to just hold the tape, or to walk you through the entire process. The present will get wrapped, and you will be able to wrap on your own someday, but it takes time to learn, to build up strength. Have the courage to ask others to help, they will be overjoyed to help tie the bow. So as you sit by the fireplace this holiday season, take time to take care of yourself, to appreciate the gift of life you have. The gift that was given to you years ago. You are the beautiful shimmering present tied in a red bow that everyone admires under the Christmas Tree. You, are the best thing that could've happened to me. And don't you ever forget that. I love each and every person who is reading this-Never forget your beauty, your happiness, your strength. Whatever you are going through, you can get through. Whatever you are stuck on, it will pass. You have the courage and strength to move on, I know you do.
*I believe in you.

I think you forgot, one tiny little picture,
I have the power to hold the elixir.
I have the power to be me, for me.
To just be the person I want to be.
Step back, look, at what you've done.
You are the only one, that's left with the gun.
The gun with bullets, that pierce the soul,
with ice cold words, with which you stole.
You stole the happiness, of what we had left,
Leaving everyone with nothing but color bereft.
If black and white is all you see,
then I guess you've never seen the real me.
or the real others, for that matter of fact,
because to you, we are nothing, but abstract.
The rainbow stretches far beyond your eyes,
You'll never make us meet our demise.
Let us be, who we want to be,
Let us see, who we want to see.
I am gay, woe is me,
*I can be, who I want to be.

Family
They look through their black and white glasses.
See what the desire, what they want.
Their entire world, on grey scale.

Acquaintances
They look through their filters.
See what they think you want to see.
Their entire world, primary colors.

Friends
They look on the outside world.
See what you both want to see.
Their entire world, a dazzling rainbow.

I'm sorry.
For everything I've done,
For everything that I may continue to do.
I don't mean to, it's just who I am,
My ignorant self,
I honestly don't know any better, otherwise,
I would've stopped by now.
I promise you, I am trying.
I'm trying so hard.
Please don't give up on me.
If I ever do anything wrong, tell me-
Otherwise I will live on in ignorance.
I am so, so deeply sorry.
*Please forgive me