November night so cold it shook our bones
Our friends out in the grass, singing new age songs
You kept talking about the stars;
I couldn’t stop staring at your eyes.
Who needs lights when the moon was so bright,
Even the insects felt something in the air that night.
In the light, it’s funny how far it seemed
When you sat by me on the couch
We watched a movie that made you laugh,
But all i could think was how close you were to me.
I was left behind to clear my mind,
I had no space for dreams
How could i dream when the only thing running through my head
Was your laugh, the grass, and the stars?
Now November ends but my heart was left in it,
my heart, your laugh, and the stars.

Frustration;
Something i haven’t found yet that continues to call.
Anxiety;
Walking up endless stairs that only shake when I move and only allow me to fall.
Desperation;
Let’s not sit around and pretend I’m not as sad as you all can’t care to think.
Peace;
The moment I realized there was nothing more I could do but hang halfway off the brink.
Restoration;
Skin tinged with spots and colors carefully healing as normal and new.
Exhaustion;
The sound as the tree finally falls in the forest everyone forgot they knew

This song hasn’t been worth picking up in 42 days,
and I’m giving in.
I’ve lived in my head all my life,
I had feared all my words had run dry.
But I felt in my mind
That all I tried to repress
Only comes back to me in waves,
And now i’m drowning and depressed.
So i’m opening up
And feeling, emotions are misleading.
I rioted for so long
I forgot my own name
This is a peaceful protest,
Indirect, i confess,
I sincerely miss disinterest.