A lot can change in a year....
In one year
I went from being broke,
unemployed,
in a relationship,
depressed,
heartbroken,
barely able to function,
questioning if my life
was even worth living...
To finding a career that made me feel like I was finally good at something.
Making more money than I ever knew what to do with.
Breaking up with the boy I thought I was going to marry,
who I thought I would die without.
Finding my way back to happiness and contentment.
Mending my own heart,
without finding someone else to fix me.
And figuring out my purpose in this world.
I went from having a big group of friends,
to having almost none at all.
I went from hell to heaven,
and back around again
a hundred times or more.
I went from depending on everyone else for my happiness and self worth.
To depending on no one,
and discovering my worth based on the way I love and treat myself.
I went from never living away from home or doing anything on my own,
To moving to a new town,
new place,
alone,
and having the summer of a lifetime.
A lot can change in a year.
And looking back now,
Even though discovering myself was something I needed to do,
it has been one truly lonely year.
I think that's the part that ***** so much about growing up.
You start to realize what really matters,
who really cares,
and what never
and who never did...
It's both uplifting and completely infuriating.
This year was about finding myself.
Fixing myself.
Proving to myself,
That I deserve to live
Even if no one else loves me the way I deserve.
Next year will be about finding new people.
The good kind, you know?
The genuine
The kind
The loving
The fun
The real.
Next year is about letting new people in.
I have hope now.
Everything changed for me this year.
I finally believe in myself.
Next year everything else will fall into place.