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Jessica Head Oct 2015
Tie me up
If you love me.
Jessica Head Oct 2015
Love is so mysterical
I am in love
With the same man
I've been with
Since the beginning
There is other guys
Trying to steal me
Good luck.
It taken me
A year to get over
My love
He came back
He loves me
The more time goes by
This is love
Love
It feels asif
It is love.
Time
I depend on time
With him
He knows I love him
Is it really love
Its ghetto where I'm at
Dope as ****.
Glad it aint rank.
I love his laugh.
Jessica Head Oct 2015
Year 1 - June 30th was the day I fell in love with you. It was rough at first, you were always stealing me away silently like no one knew I exsisted. No one cared about me at the time, you knew that I was bound to be all alone in my life of how I was. I just wished it wasn't you but **** you stole my heart this beatiful  year.
Year 2 - It was young love for the both of us, I taken it rough cause I was so in love with you I loved spending my time with you, even when we drank, you treated me like your girlfriend. But I had those dark days where it bugged me that I loved you most and I spent most of my days with you which I could've did way much better with schooling and all that other stuff but I managed then people really started to care about me but I didn't care about their care about me cause I know I was bound to be alone, after they starting really looking for me and realized that I was with you but they couldn't do anything about it, was too late for that now.
Year 3 - I'm sure it was in the winter, you got into trouble with playing with guns, and jailed for a week, and you couldn't be around the community due to danger to the community for a year. I decided to move to the city where you were staying, I didn't mind the city but at the time I started seeing someone from the community, I missed you but I also missed the community and I couldn't do this anymore babysitting and not being able to get my freedom. you had to go get into more trouble in the city when I left and got more jail time you were gone for a long while.
Year 4 - Things weren't working out for you and me. I know that you really wanted me back. But I was with someone else and he didn't want to let me go, he kept me silent like he was ashamed to have me or just didn't want to show me off. I was starting to become his joke or whatever I can call it. I loved him, he's kept in the dark from his family but accepted by my family. Could say I was with him for like a year, till he really started to see someone from the city. I left him I'm angry cause he was a keeper but man he is dark so I kind of didn't like that, hiding on me whenever he wanted like I was never apart of his life. I got fed up of this and left it hurted but it didn't hurt as much as losing my first love.
Year 5 - We aparted. My second love I left him or we just wanted to apart. I wanted my true lover back I did whatever I wanted to do. All adult and what not and no one can stop me now and no one can do anything too. I pray that I haven't chosed the wrong path. with this guy I'm hoping to be his partners in crime. I'm back with you my love, I did tell you that I love you cause you wanted to hear it and I never said it to you ever till that night. Our birthdays are coming up, I'm looking forward to spending it with you.
2011-2015.
Jessica Head Oct 2015
Oh you know just smokin dat dope. Lol. Who's all from Saskatchewan CA?
  Oct 2015 Jessica Head
Lost
How can I call this my home,
When all I feel here is alone.
I am the maid, the cleaner,
Your vacuum, your partner?
How can I say I am content,
When 24/7 my effort is spent.
I can't, I am drowning,
Water of life is surrounding,
And down I am heading,
Into darkness unwedding.
God forbid they find out,
Silent screams and shouts,
As I slowly fall into my own web of doubts.
How can I fly,
Reach my dreams, and the sky,
When this land isn't dry.
Much like my eyes.
I fall, I descend,
Shadows my only friend.
And nobody knows,
Outside does it show?
That inside,
I'm on the bottom of the ocean...
*Of my own mind.
I am trapped by my own freedom.
Jessica Head Oct 2015
You
Fell in love with you
On a beautiful summer day
Smelt like mud
And pines.
This love
Is forbidden
But I am insane to tresspass

You raise the fire in me
When you
Touch
Feel
Me

Why do you have to be
The beginning
And ending
To my poetry

Why are we still here
In this house
Were
We
Met

With your georious looks
Hard stares
**** body
Tough
Rebel

You
Blend
My taste
You do know
What I love most

Your beauty to me
You became my reason
To stay be strong.

When winter is here
Life feels right
Then there's spring
Another spring
With you

Summer days come
I enjoy leaving with you
Glad we're still together
And you forgiving me
For the wrong things I did
I'm just happy
You kept me so close
All these years
It doesn't seem like
Your here for me
But you do got my back
You got me.
All of me.

I am crazy over you.
I'm pretty sure you know it.
Jessica Head Sep 2015
Why oh why oh why
does my tummy feel like its upside down today
I am lonely
for him
I am sick
There is this other guy
that wants me
but he's a dog
no good.
It's best if I leave for awhile
Go stay in town with my sister
then again I'd leave to Regina
Cause I'm lonely
And I'm really ashamed
Maybe I'll go back to Saskatoon
visit my dad
I got till January to go where ever I want to go
January, I'm starting a course in Melfort with my mum
Make some money
and buy a truck, tv, game console, and beautiful good looking clothes
I will treat myself
to a new life.
That course is for unemployment work or something like that.
I can travel with my mum
all the time.
I'll get over him
I had a miscarriage
I'm sorry to those mothers out their
I wasn't ready
not with him
I loved him
Our relationship was falling apart.
it was the best choice to separate
I'm to young to be with him
I can't tell
it's hard to explain
I am looking forward.
I could say that I **** some bad paths in my life.
I'm more sober than ever today
I just want to leave
Lost today though.
I pray for myself and struggles to be taken care of, and for peace & happiness. Forgive me dear Creator, And Lord Jesus Christ for my wrong doings.
Amen.
I love myself
I just feel so lonely...
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