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Wendy Buckley Mar 2019
Don't tell me how you feel.
I have heard this all before.
I know what you say isn't real.
I can't believe what you say anymore.

I know you'd like to believe, that you aren't as transparent as you are.
But I know how you love to deceive.
And I really don't need another scar.

You need to just move on.
Your eggshells are everywhere.
They're to sharp for me to walk upon.
I don't need to because I no longer care.
Wendy Buckley Mar 2019
Lied to
from the start.
By you, with
no heart.
Manipulated.
Dug in deep.
Confiscated.
Secrets you keep.
Cruelty,
words you use.
Fragile me.
Mental abuse.
Emotional beating
all I've lost
Self depleting
to high a cost.
Insecure,
After you.
No detour.
What could I do?
Control it all.
Constant stalking.
I can't call,
we're not talking.
Fist to face.
Cover it over.
Leave no trace.
I'm Still sober.
Bleed me dry
Use my fear
See me cry.
Enjoy that tear.
Why can't they see?
I must leave.
Torturing me.
You deceive,
Can't appease
I can't relieve.
There is no peace
How can there be?
I tried to run.
Now I hide.
But he won.
I must confide.
Will always see.
My Fear does linger
That I'll forever be.
Under his finger
Wendy Buckley Mar 2019
I died inside when you said "I don't know".
I thought..."Really?"
"Seriously?"
"How can this be?"
Wasn't it your toung that helped you to
form the words that came from
The mouth attached to your face.
A face on your head, that has 2 eyes to see,
And 2 ears that hear,
And a mind that works so fast.
With millions of electrical impules,
Racing around at the speed of light
To form ideas and thoughts and emotions?
Yet out of all of a million possible things
That you could have done or said,
You CHOSE the one thing that
You knew would hurt me the most.
As my eyes filled with tears,
And my world collapsed.
I asked you "Why?"
And all you can say is
"I don't know".
Wendy Buckley Jan 2019
Only a coward hides....
Behind fake bravado.
When his ego subsides,
It's your fault.." His motto.
He reads you like a book.
Remembers every page. Once he's sure you're on the hook,
He'll start to rattle your cage.
He knows which nerve to strike.
He consumes every pain.
Sometimes, he's so lifelike,
you forget he's so insane.
He doesn't even have to try.
It's just the way he is.
At your brain he'll slowly pry.
But he'll never reveal his.  
He's arrogance screaming of entitlement.
He really doesn't consider that bad.
So Don't expect any enlightenment.
Hell, he say its the most fun he's had.
No rest for the wicked he'll say.
And its still your fault he'll insist.
He's been up tweekin a week + a day.
Its pointless to try to resist.

Oh the horrible he stories he will tell about you....
And some will believe his version.
There isn't much you can do.
You can't explain such *******.

All you can do is keep him out of your mind.
Run away & dont ever look back.
Its evil of a whole other kind.
Remember there's something he'll forever lack,
Look hard,  its his soul you'll never find.
Wendy Buckley Jan 2019
How raw we were when we collided.
Like a  comet hit a star.
A flash and I was blindsided.
How amazing we came so far.
Every wall came down for you.
I would never be the same.
There was nothing I wouldnt do
You settled in my soul.
When ever you said my name.
When the world took its toll
Only you kept me sane.
Your heart was warm and safe.
Your touch, let me be free.
Love like Id never known.
I loved you and you loved me.
You are one thing Ill never regret.
Because you taught me to love and I will never forget.



I feel settled deep in my bones
Wendy Buckley May 2018
Im going home, it's all I can do.
You took me away from there.
I'm walking away from you.
From this God awful nitemare.
From your anger & lack of Gratitude.
From your constant criticizing stare.
From your condescending attitude.
From every head game you play.
From your constant ridicule.
From every hurtful thing you say.
This was never mutually beneficial.
Your idea of love brought me so low.
What did I ever think  was so special?
So, I'm walking home alone, I gotta go.
Never stay where you are not valued.
Wendy Buckley May 2018
All
All you were then.
     All  you've become.
Look at where you’ve been.
     Look at all you’ve done.
All you create.
     All you destroy.
All that you hate.
     All you enjoy.
Those you have charmed,
     with all of your lies.
Those  you have harmed,
     while in your disguise.
All you have taken and
     All you have lost.
All you’ve forsaken and
     All it has cost.
All your deception and
     You still won't admit.
All manipulation.
     Remorse? Not one a bit.
I once was your tool.
     You once had control.
But today I'm no fool.
    And I still have my soul.
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