I never feel more alone
Then I do with you
Your presence consumes my emotions
Filling them with loneliness
Feeding my depression
Your deafening silence
Piercing my mind
Jabbing this knife in my heart
All I long for
Your honey-sweet voice
Whispering your innermost thoughts
I want these thoughts
To slip from your lips unfiltered
Whole and true
Even if they split my spine
Desiring the truth
Your truth
Cause the memories of you
Dement me
The ones of last May
The days that you'd whispered
The three little words that brighten my day
The times that
I was never close enough
The hours spent
With your fingertips learning my body
Repeating your exploration of my valleys
To build a memory
The moments spent
Under warm blankets
The late night conversations that never end
But suddenly the air shifted
A change in the seasons
Talks began to find an end
Now they it seems as though they never even begin
I'm always too close
Never far enough
Funny how things change with the seasons
But I have not
Continuously wanting and craving
Of the same thing
The same person
You

I laugh at the sound
    of the wind
As it echoes through my mind
Telling me stories of memories
     I had previously left behind
  with caricatures of faces
I can no longer remember in reality
      And songs from past places
That bring me down
         with the emotional gravity
And I was my thoughts spin around
                 and around
    I get dizzy from the intensity
                and my sanity
        Can no longer be found
                 Yet
I can still hear the wind
      And I laugh at the sound

I may don't know you
But we connect
We may belong to different countries
But we connect
Two different religions
But we connect
Dear aapi