Its 3 am and its no surprise that im crying again
Why cant i just have one night to not feel so **** weak is that to hard to ask
Who the hell am i kidding so come on in lets start this **** show
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**** these voices in my head the damage has already been done so why make me go through it all again
All the Words we said cant be unspoken
All the games we played can't be undone
All the accusing and the using never came to an end
Should've left forgot ur name and all the drama u made
After all these years apart thought id be over him
****
**** why does my heart still break fall apart from the memories of him
Gave my all to this man did things for this man that i would never do
Gave him my heart and in return he did me *****
Left me bleeding out on the floor as he walked out the door
Yet after all he put me through i still have love for him
But it will never be the same and all i can do now is be a friend
All the Words we said cant be unspoken
All the games we played can't be undone
All the accusing and the using never came to an end
Should've left forgot ur name and all the drama u made
After all these years apart thought id be over him
He was the love of my life while i was just another notch in his belt
Cried for days at a time missing a man who never gave a **** about me
He moved on to someone else the day we fell apart
While my heart felt like it was  missing the other half that made it whole
For two years had me thinking it was all my fault
When the truth is ur the one to blame
All the Words we said cant be unspoken
All the games we played can't be undone
All the accusing and the using never came to an end
Should've left forgot ur name and all the drama u made
After all these years apart thought id be over him
Thought i would never see the light without him by my side
Glad i was wrong now that i found out how to love myself
Know my worth and how i should be treated by a man
It was a long journey to get here with all the wrong turns and bumps
In my way
Finally seeing a way out of the hell he made
The voices weren't so bad after all
Helped me understand that some men arent men at all
He was one of them.
Now it's time for me to get back up and try again find the right one
Now that page is done see u in the next one.

You always said it was my fault that I'm to blame ***** please u never knew how to stay in ur lane ur the one who's playing these silly games lying to his  face what u think i didn't  see ur wicked  schemes
Stupid ***** ur Trippin if u ever thought I was dumb
Thought u playeded me but ***** look who won
Sorry not sorry thought u were gonna have it all
But truth is you will never be as good as me Cant compare to a real *****
Oops didn't u know u a *** a white trash wannabe
U joined the golddiggin *** family at the age of three
Stupid freak
Jealous what was I thinking I'm a twenty out of ten while ur in the garbage bin
Petty ***** mad that he was mine could of stopped u but I let it slide
Karma is what ur gonna get
Oh stupid ***** can't play with fire she is a real lady who's
Keeping it on the grind do it for myself no matter the cost
Stupid ***** ur just a glass bowl Rolling smoking waste of space
Get the **** out of my face stupid white trash ***
Kiss my *** stupid ***** u can try and get me if u want
Its not gonna change the fact that your a smelly ugly golddiggin ***
Stupid ***** stupid ***** I forgive but I don't forget
Playing nice cause I see u got it bad on the streets again
They say a woman knows her place well ***** Im sorry to let u know I'm  taking ur dignity
U can tell ur homeless look like a ****** *** raggedy ann doll
Came in this world looking like a ***** little ****** up toy
Mom made the choice daddy ran away poor little freak
Ur a washed up trick can't do what a real woman should
Stupid ***** stupid *****
It's pathetic and sad when a mother gets dissed by her own kids
What a shame to be so disgusted with ur self
White trash trailer Park *** thats all u are
U can't make bread unless ur legs are up in the air while ur mister for the night is grasping for air
Stinky ***** u peed ur pants here u go some depends stupid ***** stupid *****
Thought u won the prize sorry ur disqualified
Stupid ***** stupid *****
Step to the left and close that door u got a bad odor that's coming from down under
Stupid ***** stupid *****
Now take a bow the queen has finally stood her ground.  
Stupid ***** stupid *****
Go back into ur freaky freak world
Stupid stupid *****
Ur a real *** got no respect for a single soul
Stupid *****
Drugs all u think about not what u need to do
Real ladies know how to make it for their self
Stupid *****
No remorse hiding behind closed doors
stupid ***** stupid *****.
Ya the police a no good snicth better watch ur back
Gonna end up in a body a ditch no where to be found
The streets will be screaming joy when ur stupid *** *** gone
Stupid *****
Think ur a real piece and everyone wants ya
Stupid *****
Open ya eyes and realize ur  a zero a real big mess
To old for these young guns stupid *****
I have an idea let's go to the nursing home maybe the one for u is in a wheelchair
Stupid *****
I ain't  wasting Anymore of my valuable time spitting the truth about u.
As they say ur gonna hang urself in time
And the truth always comes to light
Stupid *****
Have a great time when u bust through the gates of the golddiggin hell
Stupid *****
He will always be mine
Stupid *****
Try to come at me with ur worthless lies
We'll see who's still standing when the battle is won.
Final round oops u got knocked tf out.
Stupid *****

UNLOVED
Now I see how it is I see that I was always right
Don't think of me at all u don't care how I feel
What makes me cry and wish I wasn't alive
Can I die tonight
Never meant a thing to u glad to know what u been saying about me is true
Unwanted
U never wanted me always put me last in the back of ur mind
Am I honestly that bad
What did I ever do to be unloved by u
Thought that people in ur shoes are supposed to love their kids unconditionally
Guess that's not true it's killing me that I've lived my life trying to win ur love and make u proud of me
Now I see
Unwanted
U never wanted me always put me last in the back of ur mind
Am I honestly that bad
What did I ever do to be unloved by u
Nobody left on my side I'm all alone
What am I gonna do can't live like this
My heart breaks everyday cause I thought u were always gonna be there
But I see
Unwanted
U never wanted me always put me last in the back of ur mind
Am I honestly that bad
What did I ever do to be unloved by u
All I'll ever have in this world is me I'll never know what it feels like to be loved right
All I know is pain and misery
I tried so hard to be what u wanted
Never got a chance to find who I really am but now I know
Unwanted
U never wanted me always put me last in the back of ur mind
Am I honestly that bad
What did I ever do to be unloved by u
Never good enough always blamed for everything
Judged because of what I do
I'm sorry I'm nothing like u
Is that it that I'm more like him than u
Wish I could be what u wanted me to be
Then it wouldnt feel like this
Unwanted
U never wanted me always put me last in the back of ur mind
Am I honestly that bad
What did I ever do to be unloved by u
Tears fall all the time cause everyone leaves turns their back on me
I'm fighting a loosing battle and it's slowly killing me
Thanks for showing me a life of misery

Thoughts come again and again they never end
Self sabotage cause I'm a broken mess
**** a relationship up faster than it began
Don't wanna get hurt again so I'll keep this charade up til I'm whole again
Sorry to the ones who tried their best to get me to love again
It's me and my head we're fighting again
Got knocked down a time or two but I'm not giving into
The voices that are screaming
Ur ugly
Not worthy
Of anything or anyone
Sorry to the ones who love me I hope u will forgive me
Maybe one day u could understand why I am the way I am
Push people away to save myself from the hurt and so they won't see
I'm dying inide fighting the voices the demons who won't stop screaming at me
Ur ugly
Not worthy
Of anything or anyone
It's a hard battle but I know it's not gonna be this way forever
Sorry for my sinful ways don't mean to hurt u just need an escape
Lying to myself thinking people care
Whispers behind my back spreading like a wildfire
She's ugly
Not worthy
Of anything or anyone
Hold ur head up u got this that's what they all say
If u only knew the truth and u were in my shoes
U would see how far I've come
Sorry I'm not the girl u used to know the old me is gone
Scars from all the hurt I've been through
Made me who I am today