Counting down the hours
Till I can see your face again
This love I have for you is strong
The mind could hardly comprehend
I must say I’m not a fan
Of the time we spend apart
Beloved you constantly consume
My thoughts and my heart
I belong to my Beloved
And he belongs to me
I could gaze into your eyes
Infinitely
Not just because of their beauty
Which cannot be matched
Except by your soul
Which to mine is attached

I don’t seem to have the words anymore
Maybe my tears can replace the ink
But tears don’t create sentences
Is it really only by words that we speak?
Have you ever looked into someone’s eyes
And known exactly what was going on through their mind?
If One can’t be heard
Then maybe they can be seen
I feel like I’m mourning
A piece of me
So can my tears replace the ink?
Or perhaps my blood?
But what will I use
Once those are done?

I think the sun has grown jealous
Of my friendship with the moon
I prefer dusk to dawn
And midnight instead of noon

Stopped by my local coffee shop today
Brought a book like I tend to do
Took a seat and settled in
And that’s when I noticed these two
A couple in front of me whispering in each others ear
Saying things only for the other to hear
The smiles on their faces
So genuine and bright
“Aw the honeymoon phase” I thought
Gosh that seems nice

And then I thought about you
Even though we never went out
That’s my fault I guess
You were very persuasive no doubt
But the truth is I wasn’t ready
And your offer I had to refuse
Trust me... I didn’t want to
But my heart had some healing to do

You have probably moved on by now
It’s been a little over a year
I don’t know why I still think of you
Maybe it’s wonder... maybe it’s fear

I wish I could thank you
I wish I could explain
I wish I could see you again
But too much time has passed I’m afraid

Knuckles white
Heavy chest
Rivers eye
Painful breath

Bridge of auburn and crimson
Reaching ever so high and long
In the middle I stand
Both in fear and in awe
Wind blowing profusely
With a loud howl it cries
Beckoning me to make a decision
To step and choose a side

I know...
I know you're there
Although your face does hide in the air
I see you through the glass of a window
Upon the waters surface
Tell me what is the purpose
Of these pointless games
If this keeps up
I might go insane
Show me yourself
So that I might gaze upon
your beauties gleam
Can you please reveal your mysteries to me?
Does it get lonely where you are?
Do you keep company with the stars?
Can you even hear me now?
Or is my voice but a faint sound?

Your voice has many tongues
And yet they all sound the same
Cunning and destructive
Strategic with its aim

Arrows lit with your breathes fire
Quenched by waters truth
No longer threatened by the flame
No longer afraid of you

I see you hidden
Behind the faces of many familiar
Your plots are exposed
All of them too similar

I took the crown off my head
To make myself more approachable
To you
And in doing so
Forgot that I ever owned one

Could someone show me
Where the Rose Garden lies?
The one that holds such beauty
Never before met by the eye
Many flowers that are being sold
Whether they came from the garden
Is Unknown
Approached by someone
With a stem in hand
Took me a minute to understand
“This Rose is yours”
They said
“And your body I’ll take”
Only to find out
What was offered was a fake
Made to look real
With an agenda
To steal

From me

Crossed paths with another
One who promised the title of a lover
But their rose came with thorns
And now there’s blood on the floor

Could someone show me
Where the Rose Garden lies?
It feels as though I’ve been searching
For a long time

Heard a banging on the door
Relentless
And strong
I peaked through the door hole
Someone who I thought was long gone
Took a step back in a panic
How could he be back?
Another bang on the door
Nearly gave me a heart attack
“Open up! I know you’re there” he screamed
“I know you’ve missed me!”
“No!” I reply
“Sure you have! Now let me inside”
He pushes on the door
Over and over again
I crouch down and cover my ears
Hoping for it all to end
One more push
And he’s finally inside
I run and try to find a place to hide
I feel a strong grip
That pulls me by the hand
Flipping me around
In his arms I land
“I’ve missed you”
He leans in uncomfortably close
There’s tears in my eyes
And a lump in my throat
“Did you really think that I would disappear forever?”
He asked
“Look at us. Together again at last!”
“I don’t need you! I never needed you!”
I proclaimed
“The moment you left the better person I became”
He laughed
“Is that so?”
I yank myself free of his grip
“Yes and now it’s time for you to go.”
“But...”
“But nothing!
This chapter is done.
And a new part of this story
Has begun
Your presence is not necessary
This freedom Ive obtained is not temporary
Leave!
And take your toxic atmosphere with you
And believe me when I say
We are through!”

She’s a preacher’s daughter
She doesn’t know anything
About the world
Or what it means to suffer
And to be in pain
She’s a preacher’s daughter
Her smiles are genuine
And not painted on
To hide the lonely heart
That lies beneath
She’s a preacher’s daughter
A role model
Never wishing to hide
From the crowd of eyes
She’s a preacher’s daughter
Always does what is right
Because she doesn’t have
An empty hole to fill
How could she?

I hear my name
In the breeze
That your waters carry
Im coming
I hear your call
I agree
Its been too long

Your eyes
Are telling
Me
What your
Mouth
Is too afraid to
Speak

They say the grass is greener
                                         On the other side
But what if all that green
                               Has something to hide?

It’s amazing
How much can be said
Without a single word spoken

Three Years...
It's been three years
Since Ive seen your face
I hardly think of you now
But every so often
When your name
Is found in my thoughts
I miss you
And I have a question for you
I was too afraid to ask before
But something shifted
As the days turned into weeks
And the months turned into years
And I wonder
Who this person is that I am going to meet
When our paths cross again
Time changes a person
But I hope we still share some things
That will connect us again
And if not
At least we have the memory

Hello Stranger
How was your day?
Do you want to play a game?
Oh that’s right we’ve met before
Hello Stranger
Can you do me a favor?
Wait... nevermind
We’ve met before
Hello Stranger
You seem familiar
It’s oddly peculiar
Could it be...
We’ve met before
Hello Stranger
I guess I’ll let you go
As if we’ve never met before

With the heart of a mermaid
And love for the sea
I was created to explore...
The depths of life and meaning
The depths of identity
And of the soul
So I dive
Unaware of what I'm searching for
And yet so ready to find it