A Broken Poet

A Broken Poet Nov 2018

Leaving

Everyone leaves
Whether by choice or necessity
Everyone ends up leaving

First, it was my father
He left for drugs
He burnt the strings connecting us with the same lighter that he used to smoke the drugs
He ruined a nine-year-old’s trust
What a young age to stop trusting people

Then it was my grandfather
January 12th will be a date forever burnt in the back of my mind
The day my world came crashing down
I lost my absolute best friend
The worst day of my life

Who will be next I wonder
Who will leave
Who will get sick of me?

#dad #father #hate #sad #depression

A Broken Poet Oct 2018

"Bestie"

Where are you?
One call
Two call
Three call
No answer
Tears running down my cheeks
Just need to talk
Just need you to listen
But you don’t
You talk
I listen
With tears in my eyes
Putting myself on mute so you can’t hear my sobs
Why do I put up with this?
It’s never the right time to bring this up
You always have something happening
When is it my turn?
I start to talk
You interrupt
This friendship
This friendship is so one-sided
I’m always there
You call I answer
I listen
I call
You don’t pick up
Where am I supposed to go?

Hey guys, Thank Y'all so much for the support and love Y'all have shown me and my poems!
Much love - A broken poet

#friends #friendship #alone #isolation

A Broken Poet Oct 2018

Invisibility

You look around the room
But you look right through me
As if i’m not even there

I’m not even there to you
To you, only the pretty ones are there
To you, only the skinny ones are there

I will never be there to you
But I will always be there for you

But it’s not good enough
Never good enough

#love

A Broken Poet Oct 2018

Broken Poet

Every poem that bleeds from my fingers are always formed from heartbreak
My poems are my pools of tears that I shed
The band-aids that are placed to cover my heart
The release from the pain
My way of making my pain beautiful

I write my poems from pain and heartbreak
But the saddest part of them is just how relatable they are
Everyone is sad
Everyone hurts

#sad #hurt #pain #heartbreak

Oct 2018

Sabrina

A Thank You

I wish I had never met you
But at the same time, you taught me things
Don't trust others easy
Don't let them in easy
You left my stomach feeling queasy
Uneasy for a week
Making my heart feel bleak
I kept trying to seek your approval
Your love and your heart
Though you didn't want me anymore
So I just fell apart
You said you loved me from the start
You said it too easily though,
Then took it all back at the end
That's what tore me apart
We'd talk about our future together
Late at night when we should be sleeping
But now I lay awake in my bed at night
Alone and weeping
You were so far away so it's not like I could make you want me
She could give you something I couldn't
I wish I had never met you
But thank you for everything you had taught me.

#love #depression #couples #heartbreak #loneliness

Oct 2018

Christina S

Daddy

You didn't have the capacity
to be the father I needed you to
You didn't have the eyes to see
How my heart bled for you

Doesn't blood run thicker than water?
Why did you up and run away?
Did you know how you hurt your daughter?
It's probably best you didn't stay

The liquor was more of a priority
as it always has been and still is,
than you taking time out for me
I guess the best we'll ever have is this.

A cloudi inspired write.

A Broken Poet Oct 2018

Disease

If I hear one more person throw shade at you I might just cry
You’re human
You make mistakes
… Well at least that’s what I tell myself

Maybe I am stupid
Maybe this is some kind of self-punishment
I can’t let myself be happy
I can’t let myself feel loved by another
How can I when I still want to feel loved by you?

I hate that I love you
I hate that I lie to you
But it’s to keep you
I hate that you’re happy for me
I hate that I can’t be happy without you
I try to push you away
I can’t

You have become my life support
You have become my security blanket
I’m so sorry
I’m so sorry

I never meant for this to happen
How do I fix it though
How do I tell you the truth
How do I make the lies stop
How do I make myself stop

I break everything I touch
I am a disease
And you are infected
Please get rid of me
Throw me away
Make me hate you

Please, I beg you
Hate me
Hate everything that I am
Hate my past
Hate my present
Hate my future
Just hate me
Save yourself from me