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Tyler Jan 2018
Why can I not love you
Like you love me
Why can I not look you in the eye
Without feeling a turn in my stomach.
You are my good friend,
Within my deepest soul.
But in the way you love me,
I just cannot take its toll.
I fell in love with an idea,
And not the soul you held
I am such a fool
I wish I could love you as well.
There is a boy that is dear to me, I wish I could love him but I sadly cannot. Please help me to figure out how to live in my shame.
  Jan 2018 Tyler
Fritzi Melendez
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Tyler Jan 2018
I'm sick of it all.
I'm sick of the lies.
I'm sick of the ******* people
Saying that I'm fine
I'm sick of not feeling anything
And sick of suddenly crying.
I'm sick of the society that keeps sending  people running and lying.

Lies
Terrible lies.
Lies that just wrap people up and turn them into beautiful fake  butterflies.
How can a butterfly fly, knowing some day it's going to die?
Knowing some day someone will say 'hey maybe we could **** that guy'.

Death and life.
Sometimes tragic sometimes a peace of mind.
Both can be both or neither at the same time.

But everyone will keep screaming 'it's just in your mind'
When you know ******* well it's just in your mind.
A mind created by a world that is not kind.
A world that will **** you if you try to shine.
If you try to shine and you are not the beautiful butterfly.
That society created out of your lies.
And now it's back again,
Back to the lies
Tyler Jan 2018
A cigarette burns, late at night. While you really should be holding onto your child so tight. Why is it everything we could of ever had, was washed down the drain all because we were mad? And now the little run comes running to me, tears staining her little eyes where the innocence you took from her should of lied. 'This is what I did' you said as you ran a knife down your leg, little did you know your 'big girl' would soon do the same. You made our dad cry when he was sober and when he wasn't he felt like everything was over. And now your closest daughter is closed off from a world that never gave her anything but the lies you told, 'I will be here forever'. There is no getting better, look at the coffin that lies down six feet under, a coffin to small for a baby girl to hide in, but there she is. And all you ever did was leave us with your words in the wind.
And yet I still miss you
  Jan 2018 Tyler
Dazed Dreaming
Stop setting yourself on fire for people who will sit back and watch you burn.
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