I’m so alone
The tears can’t stop flowing
Yelling never ends
My heart stabs
There’s too many thoughts
The tears can’t stop flowing
My puzzle pieces won’t fit
My puzzle pieces refuse to fit
I’m so alone

We all know the feeling.
When you can feel the words.
When you can feel them begging to be pulled from your mind.
You can feel them straining to be written.
But when the pens starts to move
The words jumble and tumble
Overflowing all at once
Not making an ounce of sense
They beg to be pulled
But when you open the door
They only fall on top of one another
And all they seem to do is smother

Be the colors that scream at you to look at them
Be the dress full of life with a torn hem
Be the feet that never stop dancing
Be the sailor looking through his binoculars, glancing
Be the wind that swirls with all its might
Be the blanket that provides warmth at night
Be the girl full of life
Don’t just be someone’s wife

He knew me
He knew I like oatmeal raisin cookies
He knew I love animals
He knew I want to go to Fiji
He knew my favorite color is periwinkle

He didn’t know I get anxious going places I’ve been to a million times
He didn’t know I cried myself to sleep every night so much it hurt my stomach
He didn’t know I would stare at pill bottles thinking, this could all be over
He didn’t know I picked up scissors and cut

He didn’t know me
No one knows me

I want to be a desert
Where each sand is a memory that doesn’t hurt
I want to be an ocean
Drops of water filled with love and emotion
I want to be a jungle
Where I don’t constantly crumble
I want to be a meadow
The sun never stops her glow