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Blind Paper

I beg ink for something to say.
The blind eye of white paper
frightens me.
I wrote this series in. 2024. I was so consumed with grief and spoken words and written were difficult. My oldest daughter’s fiancé died in 2018 from Mesothelioma and she died in 2022 after battling 27 years of autoimmune disease. Grief of this depth will never leave. There’s no way to get over it. It is a journey of getting through it.
Walking Dead

The sun on my arms feels lonely.
As much as I hunger for light
my spirit has grown too comfortable with shadows.
I’m the walking dead, a candle without a match.
There are times depression hits me hard. I learned as a child how to hide it. I am more honest with it now.
It is the open arms that we long for;
the bright lighting up of the eyes when we enter the room.
An old man can deny it, but the 5-year-old within still knows.
We want to be welcomed like a sunflower field,
or the sweet voice of a grandmother at the door.
The need to truly belong is a force in itself.
You see everything in life has an impact;
the power of love and the compulsion of hurt.
The open doors and the slammed ones,
the last words spoken and the welcoming's,
our heart never forgets them.
You were too weary for open arms,
and too hurt to truly shine.
Truths an old man can discern,
but a child
can only feel lost in the darkness of it all.
For it is the open arms that we long for;
the bright lighting up of the eyes when we enter the room.
An old man can deny it, but the 5-year-old within me still knows.
"When a child walks in the room, your child or anyone else's child, do your eyes light up? That's what they are looking for."   ~Toni Morrison
Dead Grass

It is agony to feel irrelevant.
I wonder if the earth swallowed me
anyone would worry I was gone
or be more concerned about
why the grass won’t grow any more.
This is the first of four poems in my series, Clouds Left Me With Sylvia. It is my reflections after reading quotes and poetry by Sylvia Plath. Poetry is my therapy, and like most, I have days that aren’t pretty. So journaling it through poetry helps.
champagne broken dreams
clot yesterday’s bleak journal
i’m done with bleeding
I used to twirl
in everyone else’s dance
until I bled every drop
of my do into their won’t.

Pale as a sacrifice I rose
where I fell and drank
from the well of self.

Belittle, berate, I no
longer hesitate to
prioritize I before you.
His words
s
  p
l
   a
s
     h
  e
d
against
my skin.

I thought falling
in love had taught
me how to swim.

I didn’t know how
quickly his words
could change into
a riptide.
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