When would she have known?
Tomorrow? Next week? Next month? Next year? Or never.
When would she have known?
After your first real date? Maybe your second? Third times a charm. Or after you break up. After you've left her in the dirt. To rot.
When would she have known?
In a note, after you've swallowed those pills? After you've cut too deep? After you've suffocated? After you've blown your brains out?
When would she have known?
After you leave a note, regarding her name? Regarding your existence? Maybe after leaving her your final text? After that name starts to echo in her mind, over and over again. After she finds out you've taken your own life?
When would she have known?
Or would it be after your ******, needy, attention-loving, emotionally manipulating friend tells her? When your "friend" is concerned for your existence. If it weren't for her,
When would she have known?

Why did I try
Why did I fall
Why did I listen
Why did I friend
Why did I help
Why did I stay
Why did I love
Why
Why did you hurt

The petals fall
One by one
Like a body on the 18th floor
The sky turns dark
The end of a day
Like a brain after an OD
The fire burns up
The trees are burning down
I need a new way to cope
The kids line up
And so does the snow
One by one all day
The walls are getting higher
The room is getting smaller
Oh god I need some help
Take it away
Take it from me now
… Let me have one more

Late at night
Madly in love
Oh **** why
Get out of my head
I don’t want to love you
I don’t want to see you like that
I just want to be like you
I'll just get high
Forget about those thoughts
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Wake up and you’re back