He can be quite ordinary,
he likes to have back rubs
kisses on his neck
beard scratches are always welcome
like that would not be amazing
like it should be unnoticed
like it should be easy to give, indeed it is easy
like I shouldn't like it
yet its what I am all about

how then should I tell him
that those are the things I am good at
those are the sparks I want in my life
not just for now but for each day

You wished that the busy patterns at work kept you away,
away from the meandering thoughts,
sitting sleek at the back your mind,
awaiting for a pick at you
for a go at you in the silence of your routine,
to definitely remind you of what you want.

You want him to desire you,
to make you feel like you're enough,
not a forgotten thought through the day,
a love to be remembered each day,
to acknowledge  and believe in.

The deposits of a relationship,
to a love account,
you use your emotions to connect you,
touch to bond you,
in a rythm naturally encrypted,
one only you two understand and outwardly celebrate,
in life.

You know he is human,
mostly because you hope you do understand him,
however,
you  may not know that you do,
deposit in your account,
connect , bond and believe,
in him as much as he does in you.

You can't separate from what has been,
but you can build what you believe in,
what you both believe in,
is it what you believe in?
that's the mystery of love
or just the mystery of relationships.
Is it that when you "grow up"
you  just have to accept that those hopes in you,
may never actually come to pass.

Maybe it won't matter how much he loves you,
you will still feel empty and broken inside,
because life was harsh too early,
maybe this is it,
all you have to do now is hope that you are still in love with who you are,
the one thing that has always been true for you,

YOU.

maybe yearning for yourself is the answer.

we look at the world
we see what you see
love, hate, family, pain, grieve, loss, potential and more
we see that you want us to care
to use our emotions to impact happiness
bring joy in the hard times
welcome you when you feel lost
stand by you when you are unsure
we feel it all

the unspoken truths about what you fear to say
the unknown parts of yourself that you may not know
that you may not care to figure out
the parts that almost stay in the dark all our lives

we see it, we want to assure you
make you stronger than you know you are
to enjoy your life to the fullest

We love to say some things over and over
that they seem true and correct
We believe them to be fact
"You complete me"
"You are my all in all"
"I can't live with out you"
A reminder that there is a part of us living on more than food
That grows accustomed to particular habits and likings

I am my body, mind, soul and spirit
You are like me
You are a body that feeds
A mind that thinks
A soul that yearns for life
A spirit that surrounds the whole of you
Inside and out

As a child you and I were taught to bath to keep clean
To eat food to growth strong
To sleep, take a break and restart
All for the part of us to groom and grow
The body

As a teenager you and I were taught to dream for our future
To yearn for more to come
To be resilient to achieve more than what we are
To use our felt heart to connect to more in life and live to the fullest
All for the part of us to groom and grow
The soul

As youth we search for more
A purpose to define us, give us and let us understand our identity
A life long journey
A part of us that we only wish we started grooming and growing sooner, the one most people forget to carter to and acknowledge
Yet the body and mind will feed the soul, the soul the spirit and the spirit the body
A union that no man can separate

Your spirit will complete you
More than any fellow man, dream or gain will ever
A thirst only you can feel
Only you can describe
Don't let ignorance keep you away,

We can be complete; body, mind, soul and spirit.

One can assume that we all walk through life
Heading forward
Over coming our fears and getting stronger with every weakness we beat
That when life gets hard, we have over come because we obviously are made of tougher substance than they ever got a chance to know
That in our hearts we never meandered
That we were focused to the end
To the point that any sacrifice we made was never a question

We do face up
To the little dought in our hearts
To the little fear in our thoughts
To the past that we only can never forget
To the little unknown that is to come
To the fact that we are not actually in control
We face up
To the little uncertaininy that we might end up alone
To the need deep in our spirits to find ourselves
The assumption that we already have seen our deepest inside

Don't hold on too much
To the system that makes you stop
The planing that allows you to hide
The fear that keeps you from trying
The uncertainty of your deepest desire
The flaws that make you seem less
And the now that seems empty

Love
Shamie