You wished that the busy patterns at work kept you away,
away from the meandering thoughts,
sitting sleek at the back your mind,
awaiting for a pick at you
for a go at you in the silence of your routine,
to definitely remind you of what you want.
You want him to desire you,
to make you feel like you're enough,
not a forgotten thought through the day,
a love to be remembered each day,
to acknowledge and believe in.
The deposits of a relationship,
to a love account,
you use your emotions to connect you,
touch to bond you,
in a rythm naturally encrypted,
one only you two understand and outwardly celebrate,
in life.
You know he is human,
mostly because you hope you do understand him,
however,
you may not know that you do,
deposit in your account,
connect , bond and believe,
in him as much as he does in you.
You can't separate from what has been,
but you can build what you believe in,
what you both believe in,
is it what you believe in?
that's the mystery of love
or just the mystery of relationships.
Is it that when you "grow up"
you just have to accept that those hopes in you,
may never actually come to pass.
Maybe it won't matter how much he loves you,
you will still feel empty and broken inside,
because life was harsh too early,
maybe this is it,
all you have to do now is hope that you are still in love with who you are,
the one thing that has always been true for you,
YOU.
maybe yearning for yourself is the answer.