................................I'm going
                    to the ocean,
     i'm going to the sea, 
I look at the waves
splashing up at me,
and feel the gentle breeze.

midnight arrives and with it
brings a wave of melancholy
a tsunami even
it engulfs me fully
takes the breath from my lungs
and my feet from beneath me
i fall into the abyss and feel my
heart full of tar
everything is heavy
and i am exhausted
so alone and so sad
i feel it in my very bones
as though it is everything and
all that i am
and i kinda think it is

Anger hurts
my heart space
such a mighty pain
I can’t turn back time
and escape this freeze frame
my brain
an oncoming train
a hope a jolt
of lightning strikes
the night is white
divides in time
the fractured mind
emits a wave
crash hard
upon the shore
I beg the lord
please no more
sandstone me home
I bleed to go
where none do roam
but dust and glass
diamond backed
I watch the grass
unpack
the weight
of a generation
maimed untamed
growing still
in night forever
longing the light.

©️JMCole