................................I'm going
                    to the ocean,
     i'm going to the sea, 
I look at the waves
splashing up at me,
and feel the gentle breeze.

midnight arrives and with it
brings a wave of melancholy
a tsunami even
it engulfs me fully
takes the breath from my lungs
and my feet from beneath me
i fall into the abyss and feel my
heart full of tar
everything is heavy
and i am exhausted
so alone and so sad
i feel it in my very bones
as though it is everything and
all that i am
and i kinda think it is