Reverberation
of  bells echo
Distance and lucid
Lulling to me ,
A familiar
unknown
Church on the other
Side of town

I am less holy
Tonight, Getting darker
By the hour.

I dreamed

of you once
On a cold barren night
& here you are
Wavering, languid,
never remaining the same.


Cold Santa Barbara Air
Blowing
Into the small top floor
Apartment

Needle in my green vein
Bleeding , eyes closed
& consciousness vast-
Fading in
And out,\

His breathing louder, rising
Like the waves, crashing,
into me
Like the waves.  

I am lucid tonight.
born to escape
This life, for
We watch the distant
Sea in awe
And sing lyrical tunes in a vacant
Apartment at dawn and we leave our homes
Only to miss them.

We never belonged here in the first place,
It never felt like home.

My limbs are long and sore
From a falling unto the earth



we were born to escape

Like swaying winds, I come & go
Ephemeral poetess, Down the crooked
path and winded road.

You may see me on a cool blue day,
but like most beauty,

I am not rooted
enough to stay.

You could call my name
and let it roll of your tongue,
you could talk to the
ethers, and summon
the sun,

Like rolling tides,
I come, but don't stay,
so when you here the wind,
you too, can sway.

Seeking the answers
from strangers delight
in the dead silence
of the night
They led me
on a dangerous
course
eyes closed
driving full force
for how could
I have been so
naive
when
the answer
always
lies
within
me

you aren't real
so you fade away.

what isn't real
will never remain.

I made you real
inside my mind
I gave you colors
I made you shine.

I made you real.
I made you feel.

The beach boys make it feel all right,
Ed Ruscha is tellin me to keep it light,
Fleetwood Mac playin
The doors on those old blue records
when my mind feels like the dreariest night
The ocean gets me high,
The californian sun makes it all right
the stars sparkle so bright
As of lately, I've been California day dreaming
all night

oh
beloved,
embrace
the outcome
of your bid
for
you put on
a gilded mask
& hid
made an
artistic
mess of
my heart
red flags
shined brightly
in the dark
don't fret
for
the outcome
isn’t so stark
I
thrived
in the madness
reborn
& rose
from the
ashes
after exhaling
the
heart wrenching
sadness
Your
role here is through,
yes it’s done
the
luminosity
has won
momentary
thrill
shall create
a
trudging battle
uphill
kiss the
angels
in the sky
oh wait
karma
will not
allow you to fly

When your mind of steel
drifts to the feel
of us together
in
the promise land
pain & sorrow
is a fleeting thought
as
men like you never
get distraught
my love;
I worry not
for the coming
of karma
is my
escaping of the dark
while you embark
further
deeper
silver swords
for the demons
you fight
my intentions were pure
& secure
your intent was skewed
mind was bruised

The road to paradise
Is long & worn

Cool wind sways me
to dark blue
Untethered dreams,
You left me here
With
Nothing but
tattered seams

Unraveled
And torn .

Freedoms Shores
Run to me,

Long drives to
nowhere
Midnight rises
slow, and
Eerie.

You feel me there
In the air

I am scattered
All along ,
Amongst
Your multitudes,
I am everywhere.

The road to paradise

Is long
And worn.


The blue wind sways me
You left
Me forlorn.

Silver tongued

Men in power

Shush the women

And force them to cower

Speaking their truth

Is seen as uncouth

They are dubiously

Asked for proof


In unsettling times

The darkest manifestation of evil

Brings forth

Political upheaval

Never silence

Never shush

For

A woman’s proclaim

Is always enough

Wandering gaze
guided to the burn
of the flame
drawn to it
like a moth
oh, what a shame

For it burns slow
so very slow
a reminder
of his
false light
false glow

Sometimes
inherent pain
comes &
it comes slow

A higher purpose
is at play
of this I know
Divine timing
intervenes
End result
justifying the means


cross the borders
into the distant leading lines
I feel the birds
chirp my mind
into the state of still
Leaving you behind is a battle
one that’s uphill

Soft Radiance,
Lambent light
in the distant  air of June,
Guiding us into the night.

There was a feeling, a longing
of what could be, Us drifting
Free,  through the veil
unseen,
Wavering, wild eyes longing to
Leave  in June.

Ride high into the
Monsoon,  soft air blowing us
Away from This place, this lambent light
On the darker side of June.

Soft radiance, lambent light
In june. Daydreams rush to me, like
Distant Shores unseen, Visions
On the dark side of June,

Of what
could have been,
of what almost was,
but did not Bloom.

raw, rough diamonds
still shine bright
the lullaby of dire,
dark dreams
still sing to me in the
night
the bluebird saw
with crystal clear sight,
and knows the unknown
without any fright,
for raw, rough diamonds
still shine shine bright

Only witness of that night
is the empty void within
& the stars in the sky
They glitter & gleam
hopeful
I carry on
Even when
It all went wrong