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Why...

Why is it always her

Why is she always the best

Why is she always so much better

So much prettier, smarter, funnier

Why does she get everything

Why can she take away everything I have

Why must she invade my life

Only to steal away the things that bring me happiness

W H Y

Just...Why couldn't it ever had been me?

Why is it always her

That gets to have everything

Why is she the only one that can be happy

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There it is
the morning sickness
After last nights wickedness

Liquor still burning in my lungs
the bounding in my head
mixture of drinks in my stomach
until I upchuck it

Foggy memories, flashbacks
guilt of words said
affair of fake love shared
temporary high dread

Pull on those strings that unviel our past
Taking small little peeps
wishing it would last
Sceaming and crying
Longing for her embrace
As we look on from afar
Our hearts begin to race
The play must go on no matter the pain
As we run though each scene
the show has brought you fame
Though the attention you do not want
And the glory all for naught
When she can't even look your way
Or spare you a single thought
I stare from within the crowd
As they walking out one by one
Till only you and I are left behind
When the final scene has been done
Then you too bow and leave the stage
And alone I sit remenising again
Alone in the audience
Where a crowd once screamed your name
Though never again shall I hear those cheers
Of those voices reduced to mere whispers over the years

I smoked to fill my lungs
to **** the flowers that grew there
the ones you planted last december