Here I go, another poem for you. I don't think my lesson will ever be learned
How long has it been since you didn't love me? 1 month? 3 months? A year?
Maybe you did love me, but I was always to scared to ask and you were too
Tough to tell me.. I realize it's to late now
Your girl is beautiful. She should be told.
I can tell that she loves you. Just like I once did..
I think it's funny how I went from wanting to **** every fiber of your body
To not giving a **** about what you do.  
Now I won't say I don't love you anymore because I don't know if I do
But I do know you are the one who missed out and there's no getting
Me back.

Life has always seemed dark
the struggles made me
lose hope in everything

After a long streak of bad luck
hope" felt like a fiction
death was always on my mind
What if I just died
escape all this tragedy

Now i can see a light
not the one at the end of the tunnel
but just a light
the one that tells me good things are supposed to happen
not meant to happen

I can't hope for anything
my hope was swept away
but i feel like the light is telling me
*God has not forsaken you

you waited for the moment
when everything felt right
and you've finally decided
that tonight is the night
maybe you bought her a rose
or chocolates, who knows?
you walk up to her doorstep
you knock her door
she opens it and smiles
like the other times before
your heart beats faster
but somehow you smile as well
her eyes twinkle like stars
indeed it's time, you can tell
but when the words escaped your lips
her eyes lost their shine
and her smile disappeared
when you told her, "Be mine."
She frowned and said, "I'm sorry."
and she need not say more
you know what's to come
you've been through this before
you force another smile
and say that it's fine
but it hurts just as much
as it did the first time

Derpression is slowly creeping back into my system and I do not know how to stop it. Lord, please help me.