I can feel the empty space in my chest
I can feel the tears falling down my cheeks and onto my pillow
I can see the see the stains of the tears from the nights before
I can smell the smoke from my last cigarette
I crave your touch again
But I was just your next girl in line
I meant nothing to you

Take me to the ceder trees
The yellow marigolds
Take the women to farms
The men to the fields
The children play in the mud
Babies born at home
Their final homes on a somber hill
Each with their names and nothing more
We don’t need to explain who they were
They’re our family

The dogs run all day heard the sheep
The cows lay in the sun
The hens chase the grasshoppers
The grasshoppers eat my grandmothers flowers

Life was quiter
Simplistic
Take me back

To live in Gods creation is all one needs

I woke up
staring at a blank wall
I used to wake up to good mornings
now there is nothing but silence
I see you in the hallways
but with no conversation
there used to be affection
now there is just silence
we used to hold hands and kiss
now there is empty hands and broken hearts
I walk alone
I keep my head down
pretend nothing happed
yet there is not a day when I don't think of you
I am hollow like the hospital wings at night
and the rooms are memories that I can't bare to look into
crippling and hollow
its just silence now

You threw me away
like garbage
Like I was nothing
you won't even look at me
You lied when you told me
I wasn't your next girl
You lied to me when you told me
you loved me
I was nothing of value to you
I was just
a future piece of trash to you
what did I do that was so bad
Why don't you love me
I know I can't fix things
but what is alive for me is the heat from the agony

You are the stars in my sky
You are the sun in my eyes
You are the good that glitters
You are the love that come hither
You are the blush in my cheeks
You are the shells on the beach
You are the flowers in my garden
You were nothing to bother
You are the love I thought was far gone
...
But suddenly I’m nothing