i hide under my blanket
wondering when the angels will come back to me
i wait at the window in the middle of the night
and still feel the demon beside me

please don't forget me dear angel
please tell me what i have done
don't say it's something i did
because i did what has to be done

let the spots surround me in my nightmares
without any control
be the withered flower in my hand
the only need is to let go

if you don't want me dear angel
and forget to come to my side
i shall put a forget me not on the window
and pray that you remember to stop by

now frozen is a tale about a girl who has some powers
but forget to tell
from heaven or hell
where did they come from?

the the boloved cliche of love at first sight
cruched by her sister
but the delivery was not right
instead of being nice and saying
"maybe take it slow"
she tells her sister it's stupid
"if you don't like it then just go"

so the gloves she held so tightly
conceling
never meant to show
were stolen by here sister who just wanted to know
"why are you waring them?"
as if stealing imagination can save the kids from a world
of ice

so instead of staying
explaining
to the world who loves her so
instead of being royal and not running
she lets it go

so her sister turns to no other
then her love at first sight
to take care of elsa's kingdom
while she travles through the night

while she isn't used to snowy weather
all she wants is to see her sister
because unlike elsa with her kindom she cannot let it go

so she turns to a stranger
with what he calls a talking randeer
maybe she's a little too trusting with her men?
well he thinks so

meanwhile at the ice kingdom

while elsa is making her ice castle
with a lengendary song
she has no idea who she is hurting
by not telling what is going on

but that song though

so the quest
the test of love is at stake
because elsa grew up
surronded by her mistake
the hate
of those glove
trying to control her every move
no wonder she had to let it go
so

it took so long for her to realze
it was not her mistake
she didn't know why this happened
but now she had to take
it
and keep it close
your mistakes make you stronger
if you let it go then you'll forget

so now the beginning of the problem
the love at first sight
causing the problem
for her sister now hair white
because nothing can change the heart
except love
true love
it might not be at first sight
but it's sister's for a lifetime

sometimes a single tear
can change what's inside

I try to be perfect
It just makes it worse
It's not worth it anymore
So go on and think what you want
I can't be what you want anymore
Might as well give up on me

I can move on my own
Be strong on my own
This life line won't bring me home
So go on
Give up on me
Think I'm stuck on me
But don't say that I'm alone

I still have everything
The freedom to be me
A reason to sing
So go on
Think out loud
See if I care

today
he said he loved me again
my one and only friend
he said that it would never
happen again

so i cried
prayed
cut away the pain
i wasn't good enough
that's why he hurt me
right?

it's hard to figure out
why you're a punching bag
why everynight
he comes home drunk
and with your hair
he drags you
to his bedroom
the only thing you couldn't do
escape

he was too strong
you fell in love with how strong he was

so you let yourself
be his punching bag
as long as he said
i love you
nevermind the punches
and drags
because his "tough love"
was all the love you had

it was hard to figure out
why he was so mad

so they lived their lives again
sins commeted
deed done
she just tried not to let him influence
her one and only son
because it's
hard
to look at your parents
as heros
when your father is the villian
your father bonds with you the most
but you need to
stay away from him
but it's
hard

when your father controls
your every
single
move

you grow up seeing your father hit girls
it doesn't matter to you
you wanna do it to

so you get in fights at school
there's a pool
of teachers
asking you
why do you act so cool?

coming to school
with bruises
as if there's nothing else to do

the crule
punching bag rules
change
when it's not you

you see your child
bleeding
crying
you die inside

you protected him with all your heart
but you can't do anything outside
the overwhelming sadness
brings you to the ketchen

she knows she can't go back
next time she sees him
he's drunk again
it's time again

for her to remember
everything he did

remembering the ****** lyrics
to her own sad song
taking out the knife
as he stumbles along
she thrusts

as if this is the only way to breathe
her son comes home from school
right after she cleans

he asks
"where is daddy
where has he gone?"

it was hard to speak for years
but the one thing she said was
"right where he belongs"

He took me by surprise
When i looked into his eyes
I knew
He would change my life
But now he has changed it for the better
And i don't know what to ******* do

He
Is
Not
A Crush

I've never felt this way before
So free
So trapped
Because we could never be what i want us to be
but honestly
***** that
Out of all the things i feel
I feel love the most
And oh my god i just wish he would get a little too close

He
Is
Not
A
dream

But god i wish he was
because if he was
it would be easier to let go
he was a dream
until
i met him
I've never met someone
so special
so unique as him
somebody that I'd consider letting in

He
Is
Not
Unavailable

We are in the same room
In the same space
In the same time
In the same moment
And I knew
It was wrong
because nobody has ever made me want to be 40
But *******
40 looks good on you

I don't write about love as much as I want to
One thing about me
I don't sing about things that I can't do
I'm human
I know a million reasons to live under the sun
It's a heartbeat
And everybody has one

We spend our days searching
searching for a home
a sound
a feeling that we're not alone
we think thats we've found it
but once we settle in
it doesn't last the time it took to put our bags in
"home is where the heart is" is what we often hear
but to the heartless it most likely seems to be clear
the homeless ones are the ones who stay inside...
there's a whole world out there
why are you trying to hide?

Our home is in the movement
in running at midnight
it's the quietest sound of grass
when you walk barefoot through sunlight
it's the laughs that weren't planned
it's the putting down your phone
where you truly find home

I found home in a person who spent their energy lying to me
thought it was fun to hear the stories
see how energetic they could be
but once it was time to move
i didn't take pity
i don't regret
leaving my worst friend chloe

Now my home is in rehearsals
in the book i plan to write
in the words of those who care
and in my parents
it might be spite
but thats alright
for the time being
because i can be alone
until 2018
when i find a new home

i wish i could please everybody
i wish i could pause my life whenever they want me
i wish i could take a step back
and smell the roses
but all i see are thorns

i wish i could be an angel
so i could actually help people
but i had to cut off my wings to be yours
and ever since
i have been torn beyond imaging
but i don't have to fly to be shot down
anymore

believe it or not
i am perfect
i don't know what you want me to do
when you beat me down
the treat me like a perfect person
like you

i* cried every night
my head was in my heart
i told myself i wasn't strong enough
i didn't even know how to start
telling you my goodbye
in your eyes i saw
my pain
in your disappointment
*could i live with that?

the only thing that makes sense in this world
is that i am not a person

why else would i not have freedom of speech
why else would my rights be subjected
why else would you close your ears when i talk

the only thing that gives me peace at night
is knowing i will some day be like you

but until then
i am not human
i am not a person
*i am a child