I have always sat and wonder
what will my life be with my significant other
will it be all spark and fairytale
or just like the dark shadow of ignorance by the love of your life
I always try to breathe from this dusty air
thirst for your love when things weren't so convoluted
why when I look at your eyes
you assure me that only you know me the best
I have said those words before it wasn't a lie but the exquisite truth
why pull me in when all you wanted was to push me aside
just like someone said to me " when you want something sincerely, it will come to you involuntary without trying "
These words just premonition in me like no other
The once joyful feeling of loving you had faded between the thin air
you said I were an endorsement but the assurances of being together will last...
this quite moment slowly killed my soul along the waves of love
these promises of being together assured by you will be there even though we are apart

I am blinded by your love
I may be crazy with your love
But why after all this
This feeling is known to be a danger
You catch my eyes in the crowded room
All the atmosphere is surrounded you
You can never hurt somebody like that
If you call me up I will run back to you despite all the things you did to me
The chances are we will be together for the thousand years

"No tears left to cry, you can leave when you want but once you do the door is closed "
"A wise man once said a hungry wolf will never strive for a rabbit but for a much larger pray "
Learn from this and never back down from the stage of world

When I am surrounded by all the darkness at the end there is one thing that light up the hope in me as a human who is trying to find peace in herself knowing the world is full of an incredible thing that keeps us craving for more
"Fire burns a candle that lights up and entire room. Fire causes the triumph of light over darkness. Maybe burning with fire is sometimes all we need? "

i wasn't hiding from anyone because of loneliness swine inside my heart
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were the sounds i heard howling from afar
i didn't want to leave u cause i know the emptiness
i will feel inside
the advice in an out by the shadow of the witchers
leaves of the dead not blossom flower muted from the outside world
hitched  on the surface of the tree bark
Manifesting some sort of advice on the blue water lake that is flowing shallowly
All these memories in my head crafted by u
All the agony throbbing pain
Till I didn't know what happiness was a legit feeling that exists in between two blurry lines
This left me feeling empty
This pain, heartache has just held me deep down inside as it prevailed against the rocking veneer of my 18th birthday

Looking up the dark lonely sky
With a burning passion trying to be successful
Trying to fulfill my needs
Trying to fulfill people needs
Why is it difficult?
Like many human
I am one of them trying to find peace in me
Suffocating to just trying to fit in this world that is filled with unexpected surprises

Thought when I look at your eyes will bright like the shooting star despite all the thing you go thru
But all this while I was hidden by the darkness
And you only allow me to see the part you desire people to see
I thought I hold a special place in your heart I guess I was wrong all this while

"Waking up before the morning sun
The little butterfly roaming in my stomach
The anticipation of challenging myself to an extent where I couldn't turn my back from
I can feel the fire igniting from my bones"
Each and every muscle awaking from my body
I walk thru the fire like an alpha  who is ready to run her pack
My enemies will be afraid to look at my eyes when a determination is the only thing that can be seen

Endless tears streaming down from my face
Confuse about my whereabouts
Where should I go
Left or right
Should I move forward or back
Sometimes I try to find something to ease this pain in me
How many time i have yell in agony
Leave me alone please
Don't hurt me anymore
Stop confusing me

The fear of failure being replace with winning
Even though there is no break thru
Even though I am not there yet
But this is my last hurrah
Once I start I won't back away
Nothing will be able to stop me from gaining the thing I want
I am very hungry for winning
I don't need a man to stand there to cheer for me
When I myself is enough to handle all the struggle
Why?
Because I am born without you
So I can leave without you
You weren't the one who cut my abdominal cord

Each drop is the music to my ears
Each drop cascading from the sky
Washing away the worry of the world
From dark sky which hold the sin of the world
To light blue sky where it softens the world
Bringing the unknown to peace to human nature
Birds chirping from the peak of the mountains
The blow of wind give me chills that runs down my spine

The unconditional love is given by a man
To a woman, the stone cold heart who was hiding under the sweet facade
He gives to his  loves of the life
He thought she was his soulmate...
All this while she was betraying him
When he gets to discover the truth
He felt like his heart was ripped off his chest from an unknown force which is pulling him down for its gravity
She was so heartless and broken  to an extent that she fails to notice the sweet escape given by her lover
Once a girl, her heart torn apart by cheater who she thought was her soulmate
She never knew he was a betrayal to her poor soul
Why did he hurt her?
Was she unfaithful
Was she to clingy
Was she ugly
Was she not able to satisfy you in bed
From that day on
She close up her thought
Shut down the emotion once she felt
And now just an empty heart laying on the cold cement floor waiting for someone to pick up
When she got to knew that he is the one it was too late
The love he once gives faded within the dark cloud

Clock strikes 2
With tired eyes and a lonely soul betrayed  by his lover
Putting the silver key into the keyhole noticed it was unlocked
Screams were all he could hear when he enters his parent rooms
Flash killed by flesh
Knife strike to his parent heart
Screams and drops off blood leave him deathless by his parents cementary

Dark is the grove and deep, and overhead
Hang stars like roots of dawn
In vain, though not since they existed sown was bred
Anything more luminous.
Being permanently impacted by the society
Wondering how exquisite my life was when it was disheveled but now I seek silence as that brings equilibrium to my soul of artic
Walking up the precipice wanting to look down despite the best of heights
Letting the aura take me by ambush over what anguishes within me and my panorama
Escape from cowardice yet being placed on a pedestal
Decided to take my vitality into my writings
No control over my future but hope ignites within me
The clamors of wolves and the spurt of blood from humans
Skins being veered around into pieces
Litter of blood jars up into the insolences of vampire
"Hmmm indeed the scent of blood seems to be delectable, the flesh torn from the heart to the intestine appears to be entertaining to be beaten into," said Ray to the mystical creature
I was there hovered on the edge
Looking toward the scene
Ray "What are you looking at sweety, do you enjoy what we did to the humans in your domain"
I was a sergeant of serpent indeed shall imprison the toxic into the flesh of my enemies
Why would it be delusional just flesh ain't it
She carved her way as a serpent will do
Taking the gestures of the male like it was her slave
Ray asked do you hate men so much that you are willing to burn them
Well she said
My love Ray you know how I love to see them crave for me
How dangerous that they are about to lose their insanity
And being deadly obsessed with me like their air depends on one
Sunny as the sky but the sun is the deemed of them all
Pleasure the atmosphere with the stars but I will shun it down
Wicked as comes to its tale
Would be ready for what she is beheld to
Serpent of Sirens doesn't want a good boy maybe she is craving the idea of a man-eater
So it said, she would love to be pleased and impressed by their fingers on her leather flesh
Rampage within her soul, nights of burned sweat, sweet yet riled love
Being an exorcism was the vision of the end

The collateral fiction of Waves
The sounds of echoes scream as I strained by my body by the beat of the music  
Tears pouring down on my  makeup
You can hold me down if you want to
I don't really mind 'cause I'd like to
Feel love, how it hurts,
Guillotined of principles killing my subconscious thoughts of the injustice
When we cling on each other bodies doesn't matter the weather changes on over the collide of pauses
And I was writing poetry about you every day
And yeah, I know that things
They never tend to stay the same
But I don't think you love me and it kills me every day
Burned out by the red cuff of over lining shine
The word we're unimaginable
By the colorful pigments of fools
Like the collision of her blames that blinds her before she flies higher than the stars
Blink of the moon and the perpendicular crimination of crimson cream
Bloom all over the sky of orange and blue
The sense of unhappiness is so much easier to convey than that of happiness. In misery we seem aware of our own existence, even though it may be in the form of a monstrous egotism: this pain of mine is individual, this nerve that winces belongs to me and to no other. But happiness annihilates us: we lose our identity
What was she supposed to feel
What was she supposed to do
In the different universe, how was her story gonna end
So many victims tattered her eager thoughts
It is better to lock up your heart with a merciless padlock than to fall in love with someone who doesn't know what they mean to you.
Let her sin away her thought of us
Let her devils ruin her soul and peace of mind
Pictures of her burns alive as the wave take her away

You weren't the one who taught me how to walk
So if you ignore me by not picking up my calls or replying my messages
If you have another woman
Then dude i suggest you to leave allow me to chase my dreams
Each and every woman is here for a run of being better then what you expect
Take away my heart I will replace a stone
You will use an ax to break it
But it won't work since I am here for what I deserve