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Rhiannon Grace Jul 2014
when you cry
i fall apart
when you cry
it breaks my heart

when you cut
i start to cry
when you cut
i pray that you don't die

when you bleed
i start to cut
when you bleed
the nightmares start

when you run
i start to bleed
when you run
i don't know what you need

when you hide
i start to run
when you hide
you pick up the gun

when you pray
i start to hide
when you pray
-know i'm on your side

when you plead
i start to pray
when you plead
the skies are grey

when you fall
i start to plead
when you fall
i finally see

when you die
i start to fall
when you die
i'm nothing at all

after you're gone
i start to cry
after you're gone
i die.
only one step behind
Rhiannon Grace May 2016
I have nothing.
I fell like I am nothing,
but I'm not.
God how I wish I was.
I wouldn't take up so much space:
FAT
I wouldn't be a burden:
DEPRESSED
I wouldn't be so distant, so needy:
BORDERLINE
I would just be a memory.
A sad, dark, empty, lonely,
Memory.
I could save you all from this,
From the pain of knowing me.
Loving me.
Hating me.
And it'd be fine.

One second is all it takes to say "I love you."
One second will be all it'll take to say "goodbye forever"
One second of
"Here we go again"
Before,
"She left us too soon."
You
Rhiannon Grace Mar 2015
You
you call out my name
when my knees are on the ground
when colour disappears
when hope turns into nonexistence

you call out my name
when you know that i am weak
when you know that i've got nobody
when you know that i'm alone

it's my  name you speak
when the darkness comes again
when rain falls from clear blue skies
when the warmth has gone

it's my name you speak
as i grow sicker
as i throw away my pills
as i cry myself to sleep once again

you're who i turn to
when light is but a memory
when words fail to soothe
and the days drag on

you're who i turn to
in my darkest hours, and when i am fine
before i even try
and when i've given up yet again

yours is the name i whisper
when people asks whats to blame
when they ask what helps
when they ask me what i want to stop

you're the one
i'll never give up
i'll never stop hating
the one that defines me

Self Harm
you're the one
i will always
need.

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