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Mary Oct 2018
When noon rays
Paint streaks across my floor
A subtle reminder that life
Still continues
Outside my little cocoon

When the unbearable weight
Of life in all her glory
Finally closes my eyes
And I take a breath of risk
Not knowing if I’ll wake
In time to live

That is my favorite
Time to sleep.
Mary Aug 2018
It’s nights like this
Where I am reminded of every laugh-
Shared smiles crossing between
And kisses warm and sweet and
Missed

Nights where I remember that
Our love was like a piano
And I had memorized every note
All the harmonies and triplets
The scales and runs
The beautiful music that played
When your thumb made circles on my wrist

But now the notes have faded
To only a haunting lullaby
That echoes in my head
At the most inconvenient of times

It’s nights like this
Where I remember my greatest love
Rested at my fingertips
Only a hands width away

Now my hands are empty
And my fingers are bleeding
And calloused
From grasping at shattered dreams
And shards of my heart

It’s nights like this
Where I do not know why
I’m still alive.

Is it for the sunsets?
The ones that make my heart swell
Or for the jokes I always laugh at
Even though Hannah rolls her eyes

I truly do not see the point
In waking every single day
But I put one foot in front of the other
And keep on marching to a beat
Long ago lost
Mary Mar 2018
You're a wolf in sheep's clothing
You're a snake in the grass
You're a piece of bubblegum stuck to the bottom of my shoe that I can't seem to get rid of.
Wait, that's not an idiom.
But I can't find the words to describe you
No word in the English language, no sequence of words, of phrases, of syllables could accurately describe you
But I'll try.
Scumbag.
Flea ridden dog.
Two end pieces of a moldy loaf of bread.
A clock that I keep looking at that never seems to change.
An outfit that is two different shades of black.
A baby that reaches for someone else when I try to hold him.
You're anger, deceit, lies.
What was it that you told me when we said goodbye?
We've cried enough.
Because my heart is a well that will never be filled, and yours is not even a bucket.
Your pail promised me a future, a ring.
A lifetime of firsts.
And I believed you.
I wonder if being as shallow as a puddle made it easier.
Maybe I can't blame you, because with a heart as flimsy as a piece of paper, it must be so easy to tear.
All I can wonder is if you sent us the same goodnight message.
Mary Jan 2018
How can I
drown out
your voice
without also
drowning myself?

Maybe it wouldn't
be so bad
to feel my lungs
fill with water
too.
  Dec 2017 Mary
bones
Am I really a poet,
If all I ever write about,
Is you?
Feeling insecure today.
Mary Dec 2017
The weight of the dark presses in
Like fingers around my throat
Stealing the warmth from my body
Leaving only a barren wasteland

Choking nights that make me long
For all that I erased
For the pictures and the memories
That I cast away as you did me
Mary Dec 2017
They carry the secrets
I whisper at night

The moans of love
Oh, just ***, that’s right

The things I keep
In my mind out of sight

The walls are alive
You can hear them at night
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