C J MILLER

Aug 4

Stardust

Metal strings,
triangle pick,
painted board,
mind plays tricks.
Humming noise; the silence clicks.

Dust on frets,
bent-down spine,
aching chords,
blurred by time.
Still, I hum... though not in rhyme.

Aug 4

TOD HOWARD HAWKS

JESUS WORE ONLY A ROBE

Jesus wore only a robe.
He did not tell those who gathered
around him how to get rich. He
told them to love one another.

Today, the religions of the world
are of untold wealth. I suggest all sell
their manifold possessions and give all
the proceeds to the poorest of the poor.

Jesus wore only a robe.

Copyright 2019 Tod Howard Hawks

A graduate of Andover and Columbia College, Columbia University, Tod Howard Hawks has been a poet and human-rights advocate his entire adult life. He just finished his first novel, A CHILD FOR AMARANTH.

#love

Aug 3

monue

soul-bound

I don’t know you, but my soul do —
It flinched when you laughed, like déjà vu.
We haven’t met, but I miss your name,
Like a ghost line in a song’s sweet flame.
I pass by strangers, still half-aware
Of a voice I chase in the midnight air.
What spell is this? What did I do?
To know no name, but still know you.

feels karmic.

#soul #connection #fate #longing #love #poetry #recognition #strangers #pastlives

Aug 2

ac

please don’t say it

“you’re so mature for your age”
i was 8
i don’t think i should be mature at 8
i shouldn’t even know what “mature” means
i should’ve been a kid but he robbed me

“YOU NEED TO ACT YOUR AGE”
i am!! i finally am!!!
i’m 14 and messed up completely
this is what it’s like now to be a teen

“act like an adult”
yet i’m treated like a child
no wonder you think im wild

your calling me crazed?
babe im freaking insane!!
i’m 16 and everytime that you call
i bang my head against the wall
i wanna KICK,
SCREAM,
and CRY!!
but that’s not how i should behave
it’s not how i was raised
because im “so mature for my age”

#stolen #childhood #mature #trauma #crazed #insane

Aug 2

heartfelt apologies

Skinnier

Oh how I wish I was skinny
I look at all the other girls
They have small waists
I feel like a fat monster

I eat, eat, eat
Then throw it back up
And I repeat
It's never enough

People say I'm skinny too,
But they're just being nice
They know how I look
They don't know everything I've tried

I don't eat for days
Then I eat so much
Sometimes I eat enough,
Then it comes all back up

I've struggled with bulimia since the last part of 2023 and I don't know how to stop

#eat #starve