I like it when you're not smiling
For you are so fierce yet loveable on the inside

Why do we go back to our saddest moments
when we need comfort
Maybe to bathe in tears...
a baptism
of rage
to blow the sides out of sorrow
to come to terms
with helplessness?

To get someone
to hear
maybe to listen
to loss?

my parents warned me
about drugs on the streets,
but never the ones with
brown eyes and heartbeats

Today
I woke up
loving myself

Is what I say
when I don't

When
even the ground
is disappointed
by the footsteps
of my mind

When there is
that one cloud
that is
too fond of me
to let me see the sun

When the stormy seas
of my mind
crash
over the cliffs
of rational thoughts

I went for a swim today

The sea was rough

I made it
to the cliffs

It's sunny here

I have one friend.
He is the only one who listens when I speak.
Even he grows tired sometimes.

Have you ever liked someone so much you regret meeting them?