Tonight i had a dream that you had left me,
Left me like i've been left before this time it had hurt more than a thousand stabs to the heart i've never felt a pain like this i never want to feel like ever i am yours and you are mine...
You Will Forever Be My Always.

My heart stays in somber as emotion leaves my body and my mind fills with things that hurt me..
Im happy i know i am i just get this crashing wave of hurt and i'm just stuck..
Back at the start i thought i had passed this..
I want to tell you how i feel but i cant bear of the thought of you thinking it is your fault that i feel this way,
It's not i'm just broken but you're starting to fix me i just have a habit of tearing myself down and hurting myself mentally....
I was contemplating not telling you but that would only make things worse but for me to explain myself to you i'd have to say
that I feel worthless,
I feel Empty and cold and numb and i think that you're so amazing that i don't deserve you, you're a beautiful person.
And i'm just a broken person with My Broken Mind

Why is that i can’t have a conversation without feeling like my words are being whispered into a void canyon not making it past the echo.
concerns or worries not to be taken seriously, dismissed or so it feels to me. how am i supposed to confide in someone who i feel doesn’t take my words with that one grain of salt..?
is whatever you’re looking at on your socials or youtube more at need of you than me that i’m not worth it to you.?
not worth the energy or breath to give me the piece of mind i crave, the comfort of your reassurance. it’s so desperately what i need why won’t you see that ?
if you see it why is it so easy to ignore my plea.