Tristan Rethman

Tristan Rethman Dec 2015

Look at the world, you may find
Sunshine, rainbows, fantastic mankind
But when you actually look
You'll find all you need to know in a history book
I'm talking death, suffering, immeasurable grief
All caused by people, to people, no disbelief
Yes when you take everything in
All that'll happen is the beast mankind will maul you and grin
Because we humans are curious beings
We ****** and steal; **** and we ****, all without seeing
The affect of our devastation
Mother nature the victim of our molestation
Animals being made just to die
I think we are all on a power high
We proclaim we are better than all else
But in reality we are just tiny whelps
On some great being's mighty ***
You say, "Now don't be so crass!"
Yet we glutinously eat anything living
Doesn't that sound like a horror beginning?

Just a poem that is a critique on humanity.

#death #evil #devastation

Tristan Rethman Nov 2015

Don't Befriend Me

Don't Befriend Me
I'll lure you in
Act very nice
Show my within
But hide my vice

Don't Befriend Me
Once you are here
I'll trap you in
With what you hear
I hide my grin

Don't Befriend Me
I will hurt you
Not on purpose
But still I do
Hide my fakeness

Don't Befriend Me**
Hurt you, I'll do
Please don't hate me
I didn't mean to
Hide my sad plea

Just do not befriend me
I never want to do
But I always will be
A monster with no clue

Hello everyone. This poem originates from my romantic relationships ironically. It touches on how I've been the reason every one of those has failed. Thank you for reading and I always welcome feedback.

#depression #pain #sadness #hurt #sorrow #isolation

Tristan Rethman Nov 2015

Friends

Talking so happily
Helping, hugging, loving
Giggle very silly
Tickle, wiggle, squeal

Blushes abound, all around
Their love is different
They help each other stand their ground
With snuggles under the blanket

One cries, the other consoles
Back rub, cheek kiss, compliment
They don't feel like two wholes
Just two parts of a family

Met a very nice friend recently who has been helping me through some rough times. She inspired this so thanks Gabrielle~!

#love #friends #hope #happiness

Tristan Rethman Nov 2015

Two Cents from a Self Mutilator

Twinkle twinkle on the sharp blade
Oh all the cuts you have now made
The rivers run red, down the drain
The shower is on, where I remain
Crying sometimes, but mostly I sustain
As I open my dastardly veins
It stings like a ***** and that's the point
Man, I wish I could sit, try a joint
But that'd be easy don't you know?
This is all just god's ******* show
We are all shadows of who we really are
Some hide because it's easier, others scar
Dressing ourselves as someone we're just not
To impress people we don't like a lot
And people who have the most greed
Are often the ones who will lead
What's my problem? Well I will show you all the long list
I'm on the brim, look, these lines of why I slit my wrist
Wish I had cancer, or something grand
At least then people would understand
The pain that goes throughout my brain
A grain of empathy, disdain
I'm done now, this is the last time
I pick up the blade, do the crime
As my life drains out, you walk in
Now you care, I die with a grin
I've done it, the big great escape
You're no hero, not even a cape

With a recent relapse, I have chosen to immortalize my view of the experience of depression.

#depression

Tristan Rethman Nov 2015

What We Preach

We all say that hate is bad
But we all turn and make people sad

People claim we should care
But then they dissapear in thin air

We should not hurt or scream
Then why are bullies always in a team?

Everyone must remain peaceful
Yet everything I see is hateful

If you don't have anything nice to say
Just post it on the internet the next day

After the abused have had enough and die
The same people that hurt stand together and "cry"

Just a satirical piece on society and her many flaws.

#hate #society

Tristan Rethman Nov 2015

A Call to Action

Grief. sorrow. sadness. and pain
Living life with such disdain

You never looked even for my breath
Then you say you can't believe my death

Alright. It Doesn't matter anyway
Not like, I was ever getting away

Me. Yeah, The one in the back, I'm laying flat
Put a bullet through my head, sound of a gat

Why am I detained in a life I didn't chose, whose
idea was it, force me to live, I'm singing the blues,

Here's news, get off my back and let me swing, without,
a wing or anything stopping me from dying

Now you sing, the words that come from sorrow
As everyone like me sit on death's row

Get up and act, take it into your own hands
GO! Stand, take a hand even if it's not planned

Let my story be a lesson, pressin', into your mind
And make it a thing, do not allow anyone be blind

We can stop it, together, forever
Do not ever think otherwise, Never!

This was originally written as a rap styled piece (by me of course) but I revised it to be more of a poem in a traditional stance with the two line stanzas and equal syllables for those two lines.

#life #hope

Tristan Rethman Nov 2015

The Dread of Living

I wake up each day
That's the start
My mind is in fray
Torn apart

A day of more school
Nothing's new
It's always so cruel
Always blue

I go through classes
Painful dread
Slow as molasses
I am dead

The school day finished
So tired
I feel diminished
Not wired

I get to my house
Why no end
My Mom starts to grouse
Starts to blend

I lay down in bed
No reprieve
The voice in my head
Makes me grieve

I pick up the blade
Hold it close
It has been forbade
Heals my woes

Against the right wrist
It belongs
I cannot resist
No more wrongs

The bright streak of red
Trickles down
Leaves stains on the bed
With a frown

This time no stopping
All the way
Until I'm dropping
No foul play

My parents burst in
Fall to floor
Sobs come from within
Can't take more

Hospital was called
There's no hope
The doctors appalled
Mom can't cope

Everything has changed
No relief
Mom's become deranged
Dad's in grief

Remember you're loved
Through and through
And although you're sad
You'll get through

This is a poem I wrote as I was having a really rough day at school and my mind was in a really dark place. It really helped me to vent my feelings and that's why it got happier at the end!

#depression #hope

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