Mama says

Find a man
            that makes you happy
Find a man
            that takes care of you
Find a man
            that loves you beyond limits
Find a man
            that will cherish you
Find a man
            that is loyal and trusting


Dear Mama,
I found him

But Mama, what do I comprimise?

We both know we know and yet          we     don't       know

Why
is hiding easier
than telling?

Why
is secrets
the best solution?

Why
does
it
continue?


I suppose I'm not better
all I do is hide
the proof I find

I don't want to keep doing it


I can't

Sometimes
You forget
that I'm a real person

We talk love
We talk future
We talk us

We say
We want the same
We will take care of
       eachother

Still

I'm alone
on making us

                                                             ­  Us

I was DREAMING

I was PLEASING

I was LOVING

I was FORGIVING
__

I'm SCREAMING

I'm ABSORBING

I'm HURTING

I'm RELIVING

All night
All day

You seem so in love with me

All night
All day

You look so perfectly at me

I keep seeing the future to be
Between you and me

But when alone
You focus on your own


Knowing well I'm still here
You rather risk my disappear


than changing into the same gear

I close my eyes
hoping i won't find
the image of you
behind the tears of mine

I open my ears
fearing
your voice
still being there

I close my lips
hoping they wont feel
the everlasting
touch of your kiss

I open my heart's corridor
fearing
someone new
only will find
the broken pieces

from you