If only I could express my love to you on another level,
For you to feel every word I carve with a diamond’s bevel..
My ways are seen as a riddle or a puzzle,
but it’s only a muzzle,
On me,
You can’t stand my creativity,
You call it smothering..
I mean no harm,
I just crave you,
and your reciprocation too..
I can’t obey when expressing is my only way,
Pushing to get through
to the one and only YOU!
I need your touch,
doesn’t take much,
let me synch with your heartbeat
we could be in harmony
you would complete me...

as I lie in bed off tune and defeated,
I wait until the next day for my notes to be repeated...

Went over seas to make a greedy deal,

Thought to be a secret steal,
  
But caused a large casualty crime,

That ended our loved ones lifeline.

Assuming we haven't a clue,

The evidence is stirred in an oil based stew,

Force fed to the world not just you,

It's a lie in disguise,

Called the patriotic brew.

I'm always being declined ..I'm sick of being behind.. waiting for your reminder that I'm here .. I'm missing and sinking.. even drifting away.. maybe one day I'll mean more than a chore.. Just keep this in store that I supported you.. loved and cared for you .. regardless of the truths I refuse to accept .. what the heck is wrong with me..? You fooled me twice so I'm no longer rolling the dice.. just leave because its you I no longer believe.. You're  a thief.. Took my heart and broke it a part.. Yet you give me that look.. that smile.. like a conniving crocodile.. I cave.. and give in.. and forget that sin that you did.. I ******* love you that's it.. Just take it as it is..
I run and hide.. yet you appear in my mind and disappear like a dime.. I'm constantly haunted of the memories of what it use to be.. Closing my eyes lying on your sidewalk ...  I remember our walk.. the way we talked.. we connected.. Look at it now almost thought it hit a dead end then.. you were reminded....

I'm ready to pack up my life.
Leave the painful memories and start over.
Find someone that won't let me drown in their memories..
Become a foundation of appreciation. Something that won't cause burdening frustrations.
I'm vulnerable and it's not comfortable.
My gut speaks words I can't comprehend,
but yet I am fearful to soon understand what
could be true.
Shh.
Gazing out onto the horizon past my barriers.
Wind caresses my pale face with sympathy.
Seems the world already knows.
If only it could reveal the secret.
My Temptations hide in every orifice of my
body..
attracted to the adventure and the sea.
Soon this will be controlled I will be conquered
and a prisoner in my own temple.
Wishing I had the ability to breath under water
or fly gracefully alone.
It's me and I want the earth to see I'm troubled
and in love with the unknown..