Why is it that you can
Wish for things you have never felt

How is it that I can
Wish for something I have never experienced

Is it possible
Is there a chance
Even the slightest

That one day
Someday
I will have it
Right next to me

A friendship
So strong
Neither of us could break it
Even if we tried

Hidden behind walls
Wearing a mask
Lurking in the shadows
Is
Me

I am her
That girl
Who has never has laughed
Who never lets the sparkles into her eyes
Who never takes a chance on anyone

But the truth is
I once did
But I was shut down
I was pushed away
I was closed out

And now I want to
Laugh, sparkle, and trust
But how can I
When I have forgotten the way
And there is no one to lead me

They all began behind the same line.
He knew that.
But.
They didn’t begin at the same time.
For them the gunshot was earlier.
Now.
It came too late for him.
Or so he thought.
Every race.
The gunshot wouldn’t come to him until it was too late.
Too Late.
But was it?
No.
He didn’t know.
Everyone’s came at different times.
Now he knows.
Not only this, but something else too.
Even if it only came too late for him, it was okay.
Too late was his now.

When the universe is against you
When your story's untold
Will I be there by you?
Or will I stray from home?
I know who you are
But you know who I was
Would you forgive me if you knew what I'd done?
I can see how this unfolds
I know where the path goes
But I am not with you
Or will you tempt me to go?
I must not go with you
What follows will come
Nothing but tragedy
I was never that dumb

I tried to call out your name
But I guess it never came
Am I invisible to you?
Or do you just see the same?
I know that I am different
So all Im gonna ask
Is for you to show me who you are
I know youre wearing a mask
Maybe it's everyone
Maybe its me
But when all my thoughts are swirling
I dont become dizzy
My world becomes small
The universe explodes
Will you hold my hand
Or will you let go

Next to her.
Behind her.
Above her.
Below her.
Everywhere.
Guilt.
The words, there's nothing you could have done, echo in her mind.
She doesn't believe them.
Because she knows she could have saved him.
His soft blue eyes stare at her.
She won't apologize because she had to.
But that doesn't mean she will forgive herself.
Ever.

Everyone has secrets,
That I know
Me included
But mine dont show
All caught up in their "drama"
They dont notice my pain
That my biggest secret
Is when I feign
Not standing alone
Having friends
Being known
Please make amends