And I am the knight in shining armour
and he is the damsel in distress.
I can't let myself rest until he is safe, but
it does not help my case that he seems to think
the dragon is his friend, and I only
pretend when I say that I Love Him.

Because being far away from someone is harder
than any bard will ever make out, it feels so empty to think
that if you shout the hardest you can, they
still cannot hear you, and
even if you ran it'd be too far to do in
a day.
So, instead, you just have to stay your palace
and pray, as
you watch them
dance in flames.

You can't rearrange their head, so it tortures you
when they wish themselves dead, because you cannot soothe them, and that is all your fault, and your brain dips
a tendril into the vault of the memories of sins,
it reaches out to within, just to give it a stir,
You feel your edges blur, because if you can't keep them
alive
then what good are you?

You're only a one, if your one adds up to two
Stew quietly
You must find a way to stay strong and quietly long
for reprieve,
You find yourself feeling relieved when you make
it to the end of the day without having to debate with
them whether or not they should stay, or
pass over.

Make wishes on four leaf clovers
and wonder, did I make his life this?
Blaming every kiss you might have done
wrong. Longing for reassurance that
never comes
This is your fault
His words echo your thoughts
This is your fault

It's hard not to feel tired.

When it's a game if you can make it to the next week
A gamble of letting someone see you weep
or holding it in again to possibly explode out.
The battle of trying to tell yourself
That it isn't weak for wanting shout at them to phone
and moan down the phone in person
So that you don't think there's a chance
a possible
a haunting of the
idea that the word 'silence' means you
should start grieving

At least on the phone you can hear them breathing.

Today it's a battle,
Tomorrow there'll be more.

There be the blush of sin about
your flesh.
A caress, a tint, which speaks
of freshness
tainted.
Your aura of dirt,
why waste it?
Let's use it.
Why do you not dare

to abuse it?

Allow me to worm
my way within
Fingers Lingering
at your throat
Your skin is soaked
with my sweetened
sweat.
I cannot free you now,
I'll not release you yet.
You are now mine.
Beloved design.
My lust for you
is more than
crime.

Climb and clasp
your thighs
for me
Your muffled
cries choke
distress
for me
As I lift up the
sky of your
dress.

I've made you free.

No human, not one
woman is
fresh.
Your broken crest is
merely one
More tendril of
rot,
you lie undone
won
My 'violation' just
one more
small spot
on
existance.

I wondered why you
put up resistance.

I can't
I can't go back.
Shadows of bells chime as
I wipe the grime of guilt from
my face, replacing it
with Air
Stripping off the care of
another world.

I can't
I really can't go back,
a mountain of monotony lies
unattended.
My title mediocrity is
undefended
for once
Just for once, please,
Freedom,
just once.

I can't
I simply can't go back,
I calm, change tack and
stack the lacking storm
away and
stray, dangerously, into
safety.
I need to,
I must
Leave.

Because I can't
I can't go back.

Not now I've tasted freedom.

If I could take the blows I would
If I could find a way
to shield your mind from pain, I'd do
that which I know that I should
do,
which is to protect you,
to me that is what is truly true.

I shall not pity, nor pander to
your pains,
for I know that will not help.
With you the key to many problems
is your own brand of self-help.

I hear your sighs, the unsaid silence,
the way with which you obviously
mind, your mind.
I wish that I could reach inside
and embrace the part you choose
to hide to others.
To lift the covers and show you,
the right world built anew.

I want to take the frame and change it from askew.

All I can do is let you know that I'm here.
All I can do is attempt to appear at the
exact point that you need me.
All I can do is make sure you see
that whatever you will be,
you will never lose me.

Your head resting upon my shoulder,
supple boulder
I lie, beholden to you.

You kiss can erase
Everything
everything
exams, dates, rates
Late
late
Late
Take it all and seal it in
with a brush of your
lips on my
forehead
Everything chaos
before I wasn't led
by you.
Said by you.
Saved by you.
Laid with you.

I think I could be whole now.

So I went to bed for once devoid
of such a shroud of fear
My shield of intoxication
a begging web beneath my pillow
A coaxing wish within my ears

And so I went to bed for once
with merely the hint of a fear
Though listening out for 'others'
,I had still that much to bear,
I always fear what might be here.

Yet once I found myself asleep
I could not keep my mind from ******
As my brains membrane was tugged
out, I soaked again
in the shout of
dark nights fear
I wished again
to have someone here
But
I dreamt them too near
I dreamt them too near

I had a dream within a dream
that night
and I stole each blow awake
I woke up twice that night
and allowed myself to shake.
No molecule wished to try
again to fall
but
I forced it.
I felt worse for it.

A Scream
A spider
I tried to hide her
I hid
I slid
I'd shout
But I wouldn't let me out

For when I awoke I was
dreaming
and of my own world I laughed
grieving

And when my eyes opened
My cheeks lay laced
with fearful
tears.

The sea waits watchful
Wanting me back
To wade through shallow
Bottomless waves
And drift my way
to peace.

I shall resist.

I think you may have the
rare
ability to understand me.

I don't know whether or not
to laugh,
to crouch back in fear,
to cry,
with sorrow or
relief,
or mask myself again entirely.

After all this waiting,
I still don't know if I'm ready to reveal myself yet.

I'm at the start of something terrifying
but even though, you are the cause.
I'm still glad
to have you
here
next to me.

I'm crying at your words of solace,
they're so close to where I'm hiding.
Hiding the true me.

I'm starting to think
you can already see.

This is taking a whole new type of brave.

Crushed leaves of lily's painted,
fainted against the weeping wisp of
a kiss.
The mangled heart of a fist
crushed in thine
You are no longer mine.

The sky's passion packed away.
The dancing branches now mournfully
sway
Away away away
The sun's heat we're left to pine
You are no longer mine.

Sweet new caress turned to cold
Sharp definition, no more bold
Fold me away.
Perchance we'll meet again
some day, aloft upon
a cloudy climb.

But even then,
as you are now
You are no longer mine.

I would never forgive you,
and heaven could never admit me.
For I'd wash myself in the blackest
of your sins, and slip
away my inner white.
And at the end of the day I'd
breathe out my light, to
haunt you in heated
harmony.
Until our next night
Together.

I am bound to you by
a nooseman's tether.

Hush your eyes bright sun.
What vocation have you?
When my clock lies undone
beside him.

Let me lay beside him.
My heart held deep
inside his.
What use am I without
this?
His heart, his trace, his tears,
His snores
I'd miss.
What use am I without
this?

Though whilst in night,
stolen day, I'll pray
for your fun
to stay a little longer.
Whilst in my own
eyes, I'll wander.
Alone, but for
you.

Pull of night, sneak me
through, back
to him, stacked
next to him
healed up deep
within.

Let me love him, sinless sun,
next to me the clock
lies undone.

So Daddy never loved me enough
Tough ****
And Mummy never drank enough
But her partner did

And I never sank enough
To be seen legit
But I guess
I'll get over it

Cos in the end
Yes
At the end

See at the end
So ******* what?

There's no point to it
If there ain't no good in it.

I'm sorry that
I wasn't enough
Whilst you were
Rough
and Tough
I was small
so,
though I
gave my all to
you
you ran me through
with impatience
a need for me
to be
more than I was
or ever could be
I guess that all I
want to say is that:

I'm sorry that you were you
and that I was merely me
but I suppose that, in the
end,
that's just the way
it was all
meant
to be.

You are still you
and I have finally accepted
that I will always be
me.

Let me in, Door with Teeth
Cast a net inside the reef
That I'll find
Life line timed
I'm boxed to stray
Admit to me why
Stay
Pray for Solace

A immodest

When you become numb, and
the signals in your head
slow down to a run
and you become blank

Your future smells rank, but
you thank the skies, as you
burst the bags under your eyes
and feel, for once, release.

You stroke your face, but
knowledge has ceased, and
your fingers are peaceful now,
as you release them now.

To roam unfeeling.

Peeling away the lines that
have taken home there,
you moan, unheard, and
feel

nothing.
Nothing
No thing can
reach you
now.

As a new chapter
opens
And a new path
Appears
I need to know
Before we tred away
Together
That you were once mine
Completely
And I was once yours
Entirely
So that, should I ever look
Back without you ,

I knew that I was once loved
And I knew that you knew
That you were too.

I'm the closest to stable I'll ever be
And I'm still so *insecure

Yes, it's stressful, and
sometimes I'll look at
my schedule and
just want to curl
up and cry,
rather than to
bid Goodbye to
calm again.

Yes, it's harmful, and
at points during
the day I almost
pray I'll pass out
or shout and
get carted away,
rather than carve
our yet another essay.

Yes, it's painful, and
sometimes I'll panic
and shake
and search for a
way to wake up from
this nightmare,
rather than play
once more the sleepwalker.

Or look for an exit that leads to

Anywhere
Anything
Anyone

But nothing here
I've tainted everything
near.
This World,
so torn,
I've won.

No, it's never fun.

Love me.
Though I may seem blind
to the ways of love.
If anyone can make me see
that feeling light and true
Let it be you.