"Kami na ni A"
Or in English
"Me and A are official now"
Exact words you told me

Those were the most
Hurtful, painful, distressful words
I have ever heard from you
And I don't know what to say

I don't know what to feel
I know I'm happy for you
Bc finally she answered you after a year.
The long wait is over for you.

But my tears
They fell, escaped, from my eyes.
I was not able to help myself
I am literally crying my eyes out right now

Maybe you are currently jumping in joy
But what you don't know is that
I am in pure agonizing pain right now
Like someone stabbed a knife in my heart

I feel nostalgic
Every single day
Those memories we've created
Can we repeat it?

I feel wistful
Every single minute
Reminiscing our past
Has been a hobby of mine lately

I feel homesick
Every second I'm away from you
Because to me you are home
And in your arms is where I belong

How is it possible
To miss someone
Even tho he's just in the other room?

How is it possible
To crave for someone's presence
Even tho he's sitting next to you?

How is it possible
To love someone so deep
Even tho it is unrequited?

How is it possible
To be broken by someone
Even tho he was never yours?

How is it possible
To wish for something
Even tho we all know it is impossible to happen?

How is it possible?
How is it?
How is?
How?

It hurts to watch the one you love walk away from you to reunite with the one he truly loves.

What I felt for him was love, for sure
But it was unrequited, not reciprocated
Never payed, never returned

These so called feelings grew stronger
Stronger than it has ever been and ever will
For they never wanted to be banished

I was afflicted when he posted that photo
It caused me my very first heartbreak
The pain was unbearable

Things go as they please
Feelings grow, feelings fade
I just hope I get a second chance on love

Waiting is my only option
I need you
Like the sun needs to
Light up the sky
I am in deep emotion
Again I'm telling you this
My heart will always be yours

To say I love you would be an
Understatement
Breaking my heart
In the process of what we call
Love

I should wake up
From this delusion I ache
Dreams that will destroy me
A fantasy that won't be a reality

You and me happy together
With hearts and flowers is
An illusion, a phantasm, a chimera
That I will carry everyday

My mind is in chaos
You are earth-shaking to me
But if this is all just a dream
Then I don't ever wanna be woke

Everyday I found myself smiling
For no apparent reason
But then I realized
I was thinking of you

Everyday I found myself wondering
How I fell for you
When I started falling
What made me fall for you

Everyday I found myself frowning
Imagining things that I know won't happen
How truly madly deeply you are in love with her
That I am just your soulmate, but never your lover

Today I found myself crying
Because you told me you two are official already
From the start I knew
That this is a battle I know Ill never win

My heart got broken last July
Tho you were the one who broke it
Nobody, no one, but you, only you
Can mend it


I had a voice, I know I do
But there were words like I love you
That I hid to myself
And they were left unsaid


The time you said you loved me
Was the day you pulled the knives
That has been stabbed in my heart
Almost bleeding me to darkness


All the hurt, all the pain
Were washed away.
I don't know what the future holds for us
But I do hope I get to spend it with you

I had no intention of loving you
It was pure desultory
But when I did
I tried to get a good aim
But someone else
Had marked her territory.
You should have gotten a good aim
But you pulled the trigger twice
The other one went thru her heart
Little did you know
The stray one found its way to me.
And it's stupid of me really
To just stand there
And look at the both of you
Like I haven't been shot, too.

One, two, three words
That has been lying in my tongue
For days that I can't even count
Words that are not often to be said

You knew everything
And I was a complete mess
Still my feelings didn't bail
For my heart was held tight grip by you

Time has passed and things changed
Those three words
That I've been longing to say to you
Are now said by you

It was a cloud nine feeling
When you said, "I like you"
At last I can say it now,
"I like you" too, I responded

Was it an arrow that hit my heart?
Was it a feather that touched my lips?
Was I dreaming the whole time?
Or was it reality?

My knees, hands and lips were shaking
Like the earth's having a tremor
Heart racing like racecars
Trying to aim the finish line

Things are going well
They go as I please.
At the end of the day,
It will always be you

You and always you.

I lost you the minute you stepped inside the airport last year.
To be with her, to reunite with her.
The one you love, the one you loved.

The world is round
Now it's the other way around.
She is past, I am present.
But I can't help but doubt you

I just hope I won't lose you
The minute you'll be stepping the airport, this year.

A piece of me inside just cried
All it felt was love
But it isn't returned
Now it's full of tears

That piece inside of me tried,
It tried to be strong
But when he said those words
That piece inside of me broke

When that piece inside of me stopped
That's when I knew it has died
I don't blame you tho
And I never once regret loving you

Now that piece inside of me is quiet
Maybe listening to my eulogy
That piece inside of me
Is none other than my heart

Just like the rose
I picked you, only you
And not any other flower

Just like the rose
Our love bloomed
And it was full of bliss

Just like the rose
We had our thorns
And we were both bleeding

Just like the rose
Our love withered
And died

You were the moon when the sun left,

You were the rainbow when the rain left,

You were the smoke when the fire left,

You were the tsunami when the earthquake left,

You were the aftermath of whatever has happened,

You were the everything when all I had was nothing.

Let go of the person
Who chooses to hide things
That reminds him of his past
Rather than throw it away, to where it belongs

Let go of the person
Who wants to ends things with you
Rather than dispose things
That should have been done months ago

Let go of the person
Who keeps on saying he does not care
Yet hides the old things
Under his bed

A deep ocean
Lies before me
Silently showing me
How deep my love is for you

A ship that sails
Across me
As if it is after something
That it truly wants

I stand before them
Wondering, thinking, wandering
Always & forever I will think of you
Every time I stand before an ocean