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LaFayette Dec 2019
Below is a comprehensive list
Of the woman I want, but just the gist

Smarter than me isn’t saying much
And not too much, but just a touch

So beautiful that she leaves me defenseless
It’s kind of important to me, I must confess

It would be great if she had a really nice job
So she doesn’t pick a bank for me to rob

Oh and of course I want her to be very funny
I’d even be okay if she was just super punny

She needs to care about me and my interests
Which are not all that numerous, I like my rest

The last thing is she needs to be my best friend
I want the type of relationship that never ends
LaFayette Jan 2020
It was then I knew it was over
When you didn’t care about me
What we had run its course
And I found myself alone again

Look for the one that won’t let go
Parade of those who never ask
Because I’m just too much to carry
Figure it out myself, alone again

I’ll be pathetic until the very end
Hoping you’ll chase me like I, you
Pretend it’s not too late for us
Alone again with my thoughts

It never works no matter what I want
My heart will beat faster and faster
As I watch you turn your back on me
I’ll find myself alone again to break

Pick myself and dust myself off
I’ve done it all before and will again
Look for the one who won’t run
Then maybe I won’t be alone again
LaFayette Sep 2021
It was a no-lose kind of night
Until I put an L in the win column
Life is a never-ending equation
When you are the unsolvable problem
LaFayette Jan 2020
And then she said
“You knew it couldn’t last
the way we carried on
the passion drained from us
we were just going through
some old motions relying
on just muscle memory”

And then she said
“You’ll forget about me
as soon as I’m out the door
hopeless romantic freed
from my cold tyranny
off on another adventure
trying to find true love”

And then she said
“I never wanted the pain
for you or me like this
but life had other plans
now turn and walk away
I’m another mistake
I hope you learned a lesson.”
LaFayette Mar 2020
My armor shines in the midday sun
As I stroll along these ramparts
Walled out from the treasure within
But my message is easy to impart

I know the devastation wrought
Evidence of failure scattered about
A lesser would quit the fight
But unending patience I can tout

The queen watches from her tower
Secure behind her stone parapets
She sees me on my constitutional
She knows I am promise and threat

I serve at her majesty’s pleasure
Even while I disobey my liege
For I will not storm this Gothic castle
But I shall never lift this siege
LaFayette Sep 2020
It was much lower

You are my new baseline

I will never go back
LaFayette Nov 2021
I was broken when you found me
A lost ship with a shattered keel
You showed up late to our first date
I didn’t know just how I would feel

You know how long it’s taken me
To put what we have into verse
I hate love poems and cliches
When I can just plainly converse

There is something messing me up
Something I'm willing to confess
Loving you scares me to death
Because it’s so easy, I guess
LaFayette Nov 2019
Turning the sky to a wave of ink
Consuming all in my path
Engulfing that which I love
Devastation when I depart
Force of nature undefeated
The Black Hurricane of me
LaFayette Dec 2019
Reflection in the mirror,
Of a man I don’t know,
Or used to know back when,
Passions unleashed anew,
The writer, the lover,
Lose a part of yourself,
To discover what was missing
LaFayette Aug 2019
It’s like staring at a wall
A face with no emotion
The mask you hide behind
Away from my devotion

And here I stay
A mess of a man
Pathetic and unwanted
And still your biggest fan

I know you’re there
Wrapped in the cold
I see the cracks
Unleash your soul

And I lie in wait
Forever and in vain
Come back to me
Take away the pain

Break the ice
Set yourself free
Break the ice
And return to me
When you want them there, but they can't be.
LaFayette Dec 2019
Prided himself on invulnerability

An impervious monolith  

Covered with impenetrable armor

Until the strike, clash, clang

Brought down low to a knee

Bloodied, blinded, wounded

Armor shattered, divided

Fully exposed to the blows

Stronger somehow, someway

Resolve is his new defense
LaFayette May 2020
Here we meet again
In a cold, darkened room
Another quiet appointment
My voice carried to your tomb

Life has been eventful
Things I’m sure you’ve seen
Lots of laughing and crying
With one less shoulder to lean

I’m sure you would be proud
Even if not all you may have wished
I try to be the everything I can
But half of me is always missed

Can you hear me?
Am I just talking to air?
Can you hear me?
Give me a sign you’re there
LaFayette Oct 2020
There are two ways to believe
I can listen to your words
Or what you really mean
Either way I'm downright ******
LaFayette Sep 2020
Tonight I danced with Cathrine the Great
Swaying slowly as I shift my weight

A childhood dream come true in my arms
And I defenseless against her charms

I stare at her in the candlelight
Her green eyes glowing perfectly bright

Her majesty brings me to my knees
I breathe deeply to hide my unease

I beg for this waltz to never end
Or my heart will break and never mend

Tonight I danced with Cathrine the Great
Tomorrow alone, left to my fate
LaFayette Nov 2020
Everything came effortlessly
As we talked and walked endlessly
Two people alone in a crowd
Your laugh so boisterous and loud

Climbing on a forgotten train
And getting caught in the rain
I don’t know how it all ends
But I know we aren’t just friends
LaFayette Aug 2019
Your heart beat races
Nearly fast as mine
Experiments are fun
It’s time to see behind

Let’s lose the excess
Get back to being bare
Turn white into red
We make such a pair

Lay yourself across
Exposed to the air
Take a look at the floor
Wait for your share

I caress what you have
Then pull back slow
Gentle but firm
Here comes the blow

Be loud or be quiet
I hope that you like it
Now that you’re done
It’s my turn to try it
Felt naughty. Decided to write about it. Anyone with experience? How'd I do?
LaFayette Nov 2019
It was such a strange thing as a young boy
To make your way with an eye to the future
To think about adulthood with the eyes of a child
And to set a path without knowing the cost

And the way life makes these choices more stark
Like when you bury your father as a teenager
Decide to put on a uniform before you can drink
Sent to war before you know yourself truly

You suffer through a limbo of loneliness and haze
Numb your pain with the medicine they give you
Promise that you are okay and couldn’t be better
Just in the process of healing but falling deeper

Pick yourself up and brush yourself off
Start a new life in the family you always knew
Pretend you have it all figured out now
And start that family you wanted from day one

Plunge into something you swore was right
Take your vow and shut your mouth
Turn off the voice that says it’s not
Enter into a state of stasis devoid of passion

From your greatest mistake your greatest gift
A little girl who is too much all her own
But not free of the mistakes you already made
Now sentenced to a life you never wanted for her

The death of a love you swore to uphold
Ripped from your fingers and no chance to hold
The betrayal from the one you didn’t trust fully
Setting you on a road all your own again

Took 37 years to find the one you thought
Now dust yourself and start all over
Add another perfect soul to the ledger
Because it’s all a waste if she’s not loved
LaFayette Dec 2019
I’ve said all I need to say
To tell you how I feel
What the path ahead is
Where you fit in it
Or how to walk away
Crystal clear vision
Of ups, downs, sorrows
And unmatched highs
Stay with me tonight
Or leave in the dark
But no more talking
It’s time for clarity
LaFayette Apr 2020
Path I didn’t choose or want

Addition of another love

Means division of a single heart

Unsustainable and unhealthy

Subtraction is a cold calculus
LaFayette Jan 2021
Breaking just after I had my last break
Taking the chance I was too afraid to take

Embracing another by accepting her embrace
Racing to her arms after refusing the race

Thawing my heart when I doubted the thaw
Dawning on me that I found my new dawn
LaFayette Sep 2020
I don’t decide on your beauty day to day

It’s a static viewpoint I won’t redecide



Regardless of the excuses you have:

Too much makeup!

Too little makeup!

Wait! I blinked!

Wrong angle, I have two chins!

Are my ears sticking out?

All of my hair is out of place!

Don’t get my profile, my nose has a bump!

I thought you aren’t supposed to get red eye anymore?

I look so tired today.

This shirt is doing me no favors.

Is one eye larger than the other?

For the love of God who has a comb?

Is that a gray hair?!

Is that a goat in the background?

That’s a zit. It’s a zit isn’t it?

I just don’t take good pictures. Ask anyone.



Keep adding to the list, doesn’t matter

You’re beautiful to me in any light



Wait, I just sent you a picture

Are you doing the same to me?!
LaFayette Feb 2021
It occurred to me
Am I evil or just fun?
Then the cops showed
LaFayette Sep 2020
Did you mean to
Start this little thing
Did you mean to
Join two broken souls
Did you mean to
Make me see you
Did you mean to
Make me like it
Did you mean to
Intrigue me like this
Did you mean to  
Run through my mind
Did you mean to  
Keep me up all night
Did you mean to
I hope you did
LaFayette May 2020
Hushed whispers carry your demands
A litany of games needing enumeration
I take your direction of my next actions
Prepare to place you under my power

Tie them tighter to ensure compliance
The lack of control is the best part it seems
Hands and feet immobile and trembling
Your fiery eyes extinguished by blindfold

You convulse as I grasp and grip you
My fingers reach your neck and I squeeze
Breathing is shallow but deep in your chest
Harder, you say, but don’t leave a mark
LaFayette Dec 2019
I see them too when I close my eyes
I hear the sounds like yesterday
There is so much a mind can retain
Especially when you don’t want it to
Flashes of horror then shudders, shivers
Guilt is a terrible burden to carry
When you never deserved to own it
Demons find you in the dark
And keep you from seeing a way out
You see a permanent solution
To your very permanent problem
But there is still light in the tunnel
Hope is never truly far behind
Look to those holding out their hands
Don’t you leave me here like this
LaFayette Jan 2020
I hope the *******
Was worth losing a great wife
You douchenozzle
#ForDeirdre
LaFayette Jun 2020
I don’t want to forget you
Contentment as we lay entwined
You said this is where you wanted to be

                    Your memory is so ******* selective
                    Agony as I lay beside you
                    I never said I was your forever

The lady doth protest too much
I remember what was real and what wasn’t
The facts and my memories still conform

                     Your dramatics don’t impress me
                     You twist reality to suit you
                     Recall it all, not only what you want

Do I cause you all this pain?
Have I misread what you wanted?
Is this all my imagination?

                      Good intentions don’t preclude pain
                      What we both want, I can’t give
                      This is real but it’s not our reality

I only wanted to see you smile
Reciprocate the exhilaration you gave me
To be everything you ever needed

                       Our happiness masked a demon
                       The feelings were always mutual
                       You can’t be the answer to this question

Then on this we can agree
                       It’s two broken hearts, not one
LaFayette Nov 2019
You forget about what you have
Until it all falls apart and you’re desperate
Like calling to God on your deathbed

The one who called every week
When I lost one of those most important
Even though I didn’t really listen

The one who took every call
Who never took a break from my breaking
And told me to keep my head

The one who I never laid eyes on
The stranger on the other end of the phone
Promising it will all be okay

The group of idiots crazy as me
Keeping the insane conversation going
Sometimes nothing is best said

My friends are proof positive
That I have an embarrassment of riches
I forgot that before and won’t again
LaFayette Nov 2019
A vision of the sand and waves endlessly
Unending sky and sundown magenta

The slow rock of the chair and me in the breeze
A glance to my right and vacant stare to infinity

My mistake left me here to contemplate fate
Of a solitary life without the love of another

I yearn for one who can see through my scarred form
Unconditionally accept the soul which rests inside

Will you stay here and be all I ever needed?
Will you fill this empty chair here, love?
LaFayette Mar 2020
Coiled and never broken
Two hearts woven to one form
He said to her as she teared
“We can’t weather the storm”

Their souls were tangled close
She knew him for the better
“We’re miserable apart always
I am your love, not fetter”

She continued to plead to him
Her voice continuing to travel
“You and I are united, my love
Our love never to be unraveled”

He prayed, angels of better nature
For the wisdom of heaven above
“What of the days I disappoint you
When I am not a man to be proud of?”

“Those times they will come and go
You will still find me at your side
We will carry our weight together
I’ll still look on you with pride”

“I believe it may be a grand disaster
Two fools facing the world peerless”
“When two are entwined as us
We face the world truly fearless”
LaFayette Aug 2019
She left me for dead
In the house that we built, loved
But I am not dead
Haiku (at least I hope, I'm bad at counting syllables)
LaFayette Nov 2019
The feeling only comes
When the night advances
When the light extinguishes
When my mind weakens
When actions don’t matter
When the whispers start
When I want to break
When I want the light to flash
I need to remember
Place it where it belongs
Give it to those worthy
Keep the faith
And fear no more
LaFayette Aug 2019
Amidst the cold and dark spaces between
There I am with my invisible foe
Waiting with bated, visible breath
Find me here and never let me go

When my brain is all anxiety and chaos
Broken thoughts unable to sow
Here I am the shattered man
Find me here and never let me go

Where the mirror mocks my reflection
Disgust of me from head to toe
I’ll freeze in place for you to save me
Find me here and never let me go

I’ve waited for so long to see your face
An unwrapped present behind a bow
The other half of my soul, unfound
Find me here and never let me go

I know you are out there my love
Searching for the path we cannot know
I pray for you to find your way
Find me here and never let me go
Fit
LaFayette Sep 2020
Fit
Did you want me to fall flat on my face?

I know why you look at me wearily

You want to know where the catch is



I saw you watching me and that little smirk

I know awkwardness is a defense

And it’s not hot in here, that’s just us



Pay attention and you don’t need directions

Those weak knees ain’t from the hiking

Prepping for the night is obsolete, dear



It’s a beautiful thing when it all aligns

When someone fits your contours just right

And now my bed feels too **** big
LaFayette Mar 2020
You’re the one who keeps me grounded
Reminds me what life is about

The one thing I did absolutely right
The scariest thing I’ve ever done, I’m reminded

When I sneak into your room every night
For one more kiss on your forehead

I’ll never be as good as I want to be
I wish I could learn your mistakes for you

I’ll forever try to be everything you need
I’ll forever try to make it up to you
LaFayette Oct 2019
You are my past and my never again
You left me but I left you faster
And I know I won’t ever look back
But why can’t I move forward
I want to feel my heart pounding
When she finally says I love you
When I can tell her I’m ready for her
When the ghosts are gone
And all that’s left is to fall
Into her arms and never to leave
God, I hate me so much right now
LaFayette Jan 2020
Hello old friend

It's good to see you

What’s it, 20 years?

I’ve been up and down

People come and gone

Graduated college

Went to war

Fell in love

Fell out of it

Met a girl

Got married

Bought a house

Had a baby

Got some PTSD

Marriage ended

Sold the house

Started all over

Not surviving

I am thriving

How are you?
LaFayette Jul 2020
You can’t see fetid decay
Evidence of damnation
Until you step back and see
Need for rejuvenation

The spell finally broken
I can’t see all that I did
The fog cleared from my eyes
Love turned from fresh to rancid

I need to move on from here
Find the space to find myself
A new home to call my own
A better place for my health

My refuge in coming storm
My beacon in darkest night
My solace in crushing loss
My support in life’s fight

You were important to me
Before I reached coming dawn
Some things seem to disappear
They are never fully gone
LaFayette Dec 2019
Falling up and falling down
Whiplash hurts the same
You weren’t an option
Until you made yourself one

Whirlwind of emotions
New replacing the old
I carried you with me
I can’t carry you anymore

When I’m wide open to you
And you keep hiding from me
I can’t help your reflection
Because I don’t see the same

I’ll never understand your silence
Why suffer so much all alone
When I am screaming, begging
I’ll be whatever you need

I give up, you can go now
Find the one you can open up to
Because I wasn’t enough
But not for lack of trying
LaFayette Nov 2019
Why can’t you just leave well enough alone for once?
You don’t need to say every **** thing living in your head
Do you think it makes you some sort of savant?
Because maybe you should just keep it to yourself now and again
Would it **** you to give everyone in your life a break?
Keep a stiff upper lip instead of being a raw, exposed nerve
Could we maybe spare the world your feelings?
Sooner or later people just won’t want to listen anymore
LaFayette Sep 2021
Who the hell ever thought I’d see the apex
Looking back on the detritus of a climb

Surveying the summit of my ascension
I let myself feel just a ripple of pride

It took way more crutches, crawling, and clutching
Than I imagined at my journey's nadir

I feel the clean air for a moment longer
I guess it’s time to go find my new mountain
LaFayette Jun 2020
The first part is the best part
The excitement of control
Conjuring art from nothing
Digging into a damaged soul

Then the fear sets itself deep
Talentless and lack of insight
Going to the same stupid well
My weakness exposed to the light

I bought Poetry for Dummies
I’m no poet, and I know it
But I step up once again
I hit submit and I show it

I hold my breath as it posts
I pray for the views and the likes
My “gift” to Hello Poetry
Desperate to avoid dislikes

I don’t want forced pity
Candid confession from a man
Hiding behind pseudonym
Who hopes you can just understand
LaFayette Oct 2019
In my defense, I swear
It wasn’t my idea
She said she was lonely
Needed a friendly ear

I thought we were friends
Turns out more than that
She asked to undress
I’m on the phone, who cares

I kept my pants on, mostly
And didn’t talk much
I really didn’t need to
She had her own fun

Then you and I dated
I never expected it
She gives me weird looks
I think she remembers it
LaFayette Jan 2020
I’ve always preferred dark, rainy days
Like God is telling you to stay inside
Hold onto your loved one and stay dry
Enjoy the feeling of soft imprisonment

I can never forget the days in the pour
Unable to dodge the globs of cold water
The torrent making warmth impossible
The cozy light of home so far distant

I remember those days in my distant past
They remind me to hold everyone close
Appreciate that I can still breathe their air
And watch the rain harmlessly on windows
LaFayette Sep 2020
And the acrid breeze will burn our eyes

The conflagration may scorch



We want the warmth to keep us safe

Show us what we never had



Obscured in the gray, dark mist

I see you clearly in the glow



You keep talking about the smoke

But all I see is the fire
LaFayette Dec 2020
I am blind and cannot see
But my heart knows the way
The path is clear but treacherous
But I know nothing worth having is easily had
Is this the climb before my fall?
From here, I can’t see the end
I will not yield to my fears
They are based on my past, not my future
An unwritten future, a black monolith
But my fear is paired with freedom
As I write the next pages
I ascend to my waiting fate
With the wing at my back
And courage in my heart
I embrace what could tear me asunder
And take in the view as I climb
Catch me if I stumble, my love
I grow stronger with each uneven step
I learn from each wrong turn
And now I see the summit
To which I must walk alone
I carry your heart in my heart
But each step is my own
It is time to find your apex
Apart from my obsession
While it doesn’t look as I imagined
The view from here is life changing
These images I will take my me
On my new journey
My hard-won perspective with me always
h/t to Adrienne
LaFayette Dec 2019
You don’t get to choose the person, place, or time
Life would have been much easier if I chose you too
You did your part but it just couldn’t work that way
You wished to wear my ring but it wasn’t yours to take

Get the hell away from me and leave me to my devices
Hearts can’t heal when the scabs keep getting exposed
As long as I am here you will never close your open wound
I wish I loved you the way you wanted, but I never will
LaFayette Aug 2020
Mirror wounds only show we braved the same knives
Your run for safety only leads to a solitary false harbor
Keeping you in place as I lament from behind my line
My failed battles have been with demons like yours
That will keep you in place to strengthen your weakness
There is no perfect world where these wounds won’t reopen
But the blessings can outweigh any tragedy if you let them be
There is no amount of days which will let me stop wishing
For those days marching in a row creating our own music
This imperfect world will try to cleave us repeatedly in two
Yet cupid’s arrow has kept together those without light and heat
Your feelings of failure are the result of what is now missing
As your soul yearns to restore the completion we both once had
It’s more than just our share of scars which line up perfectly
Broken bones can heal repeatedly but hearts stay that way
What will you do about the blessings you already had?
LaFayette Sep 2020
Here we are so deep in something we didn’t mean to

Two wounded souls with ghosts in an unfamiliar town



You slowly opened your gates to reveal yourself to me

The time with you was no longer nearly enough to satisfy



I was a fool pretending to be a poet slinging passion

Daring the flames to quench this growing enthusiasm



You were a skeptic looking a reason to explain this away

And found out our contours fit together like a puzzle



I, riddled with clichés and begging to be taken seriously

Finding an Eshton twin while trying to just start over



You dared me not to see a woman begging to be written for

Your half phrases, your intense stares, and confident walk



I found a muse and saw much more than you bargained for

A weird woman who intrigued me with every little nuance



You believed no subject too taboo to tackle together  

Multiple choice exams never were as easy as yours



I realized my defenses had been stolen from under me

The siege general suddenly realizing he is besieged



You were a treasure both all mine and not at all

Though I am a man who tilts at windmills on a calm day



I’m drained trying to put a beautiful secret into verse

I’d rather focus on holding you in the glow of the fire



You reset me in ways I never could imagine or believe  

And now I can’t imagine becoming who I was before



I realize you will still have you’re your insecurities

But you are more than enough even at your worst



These are the last words and hope they are all you need

Know now that I am yours, all yours, and only yours
LaFayette Mar 2020
Friends just keep saying
It’s good to have you back
Thanks, good to be back
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