If only you could be there...
If only you could be there when I crash after a long ride of happiness.
If only you could be there when I fall out of the sky after a flight of joy.
If only you could be there when I crumble under the weight of my own problems.
If only you could be there when all the walls close in on me and for a tiny box around me.

If only you could be there to be the pillow that reduces the crash impact.
If only you could be there to be the tree that breaks my fall.
If only you could be there to form a safety structure to stop me from completely crumble apart.
If only you could be there to break the walls before they close in on me.
If only you could be there..

A lot of people call me insane
They call me stupid, and wonder why
I rather be heart broken than break someone's heart
I don't like the thought of someone's heart aching when they hear my name
I don't want someone to cringe when they hear my voice
I don't want the thought of me
To break someone to tears
To be the poison flowing through his veins hurt me more than any man could
My heart is too kind and pure
I can't bear the thought of hurting him
This is why I'm better off being heart broken
Rather than being a heart breaker

Being your slave, what should I do but tend
Upon the hours and times of your desire?
I have no precious time at all to spend,
Nor services to do, till you require.
Nor dare I chide the world-without-end hour,
Whilst I, my sovereign, watch the clock for you,
Nor think the bitterness of absence sour
When you have bid your servant once adieu.
Nor dare I question with my jealous thought
Where you may be, or your affairs suppose,
But, like a sad slave, stay and think of naught
Save where you are, how happy you make those.
    So true a fool is love that in your will,
    Though you do any thing, he thinks no ill.

I don't regret meeting you,
or having feelings for you at all.
Actually meeting you and everything else made me the happiest person alive.
I just want you to leave my mind already.