Koda Mueller

Koda Mueller Nov 8

Every day is a performance, a never ending act
I always must perform or people will attack
I've become nothing more than a fake
I've no idea how much more I can take
They've forced me to hide who I love, who I am-deep down inside
When all I've ever wanted is to embrace myself with pride
They force me to wear a mask
Every day, a constant task

“Be yourself, be independent” they say
Yet when I do they always turn away
It shouldn't be like this, it isn't ******* fair
But who am I kidding, they don't ever care
The only time they care is when there's another suicide on TV
I worry I'll share that fate, just another statistic to be
I don't know where to go or what to do
So I'm crying for help, a message to you

I'm constantly forced to hide my sexuality and gender in my community for my own safety and it's been weighing heavily on my mind so I wrote a poem about it

#lgbtq #bisexual #nonbinary

Koda Mueller Oct 2

-Halloween-

Look and observe as the leaves turn orange and red
The chill in the air, a feeling that feels with me with excitement and dread
Halloween is finally here!
Time to celebrate with happiness….and fear
Decorate and fill your jack-o-lanterns with light
To stop monsters from coming to give you a fright

Stop and listen to the werewolves howling at the moon
They're coming my friends, they'll be here real soon
Watch as the vampires hunt throughout the night
Better be careful for they have got quite the bite
Look, there goes a witch and a black cat flying on a broom!
Do not anger her or you will bring about your doom
Make sure to watch out as the zombies rise from the head
Stay away from them for they'd love nothing more than to feast on your head
No need to fear the ghosts, no need to run away
All the ghosts want is for someone to play

Halloween is here, fear is in the air
Monsters excited to give humans a scare
Make sure to have your Halloween cheer…for if you don't, you'll be sad
Because the boogeyman himself will hunt you down and make you wish you had

I absolutely love Halloween and it is my all time favorite time of year so I decided to write a poem to get into the Halloween spirit

#halloween #spooky #october

Koda Mueller Sep 11

Dragonfly, Oh Dragonfly

Dragonfly
Oh, Dragonfly
There you are, my dragonfly

Every day, it’s utter hell within in my head
Sometimes I hurt so much, I just wish I were dead
I don’t do much anymore, just hide and cry
People tell me it gets better, but it’s all just a lie

Filled with exhaustion, I look to the sky
I never got the chance to tell you goodbye
They tell me to be happy, that you’re in a better place
Next thing I know, the tears are streaming down my face
There is nothing I want more than your sweet, loving embrace
Nothing is right, nothing is the same
Life is now no more than a torturous game

I look up and there I see
A visitor who I know is here for me
There you are, soaring through the sky
A dragonfly that has come to say hi
I watch it’s wings buzz and is flies on by
There you are mom, I know it’s you
It may sound stupid but I know it’s true

Dragonfly
Oh, Dragonfly
There you are my dragonfly

Grieving my mother's death, she always said she'd come back as a dragonfly and every time I see a dragonfly, I like to think it's her.

#grief #loss #sad

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