New Year's Eve
is it really a new start?
same antique feelings,
same broken heart,

same spinning head,
same lost soul -
is there much point
of holding on at all?

but this year will be better,
my hanging head will rise.
I will not let this fool
of my sorrow lead to my demise.

and so new year please
bring on the challenge.
with it i will grow,
create a new life to follow.

I wish I knew
How not to be sad.
How not to be angry,
And how not to feel pain.

I wish I knew
How to be happy.
How to enjoy life,
And how to leave the past behind.

I wish I knew
How to trust.
How to love myself,
And how to forget the harm.

I wish I knew
How to open up.
How to fight the dark,
And how to get rid of anger.

I wish I knew that
Not everyone is nice.
Not everyone wants to be friends,
And not everyone is kind.

I wish I knew that
Not all things are free.
Not all love is real,
And not all hope is true.

I wish I knew that
Not everything is joyful.
Not everything is beautiful,
And not everything is light.

I wish I knew that
Memories don't fade.
That words sting,
And scar for life.

I wish I knew
That my skies wouldn't clear.
That my demons would win,
And that I would give in to the darkness.

Someone's voice I've heard
Trying to open my eyes
A blurry view
Shadow of light
                            

                                Where's that sound came from
                                 I can't hear clearly
                                 Its like a sob
                                 Or its just like a mourn


                                                                      What should i do?
                                                                      I'm just a mere living
                                                                      I can't do things
                                                                      Even to heal wounds


A misery that kills
Slowly deep to your soul
Scream out loud
No one can stop you

                                           Sufferings come nearer
                                            Slowly tortured
                                            Your consciousness will
                                            Be worn out
                                                            
                                                                                Cut through down
                                                                                The exquisite flesh
                                                                                 Bleed to the fullest
                                                                                 Tear until gone

I'm dizzy
Till the end
I've lost
What I have