She had galaxies
In her eyes
And her tears
Were falling stars.

I remember
When my arms were sliced for a summer,
The summer I was sad
When I cried myself to sleep every single night
When I was a child, but felt like a failure
Yet you never knew because I smiled
I never stopped smiling for you to have your precious mirage
When you finally found out about my arms
You didn't help me, you only took my blade away and forgot where you put it
This is my pain not yours
MY PAIN
So don't you ever act like the victim.

the rain outside of my window
brings back memories of you
as it softly hits my window as the wind blows
i think of you
how smooth your voice is
how soft your skin is
how passionate you become
laying by window, seeing it fall so hard but look so delicate
helps you come to mind
watching the clouds move. fast and beautifully
paints an image of you in my head
you dance in the rain without a care in the world
your smile and childlike character helps me feel free again
as i dream of seeing you again
i can feel you taking my hand
and dancing with me as you sing to me
it's so hard to feel this again
without you by my side
but all i know is that whenever i see rain
i will always think you
forever

ive tried burning bridges they wont burn away
no matter what i do they are there to stay
standing there so strong like my love for you
like the burning bridges my loves still standing too

your always on my mind no matter what i do
even in my dreams i am there with you
doing things together like we did before
laying in my arms. in love again once more

before it all went wrong when we were as one
im still in love with you even though your gone
i cant sleep at night leave it all behind
when i close my eyes sleep is hard to find

i cant burn the bridges they wont burn away
you are always there each and every day
they just wont fall down no matter what i do
there stll standing strong like my love for you

always on my mind no matter what i do
even in my dreams i am there with you
doing things together like we did before
laying in my arms in love again once more

I think I wrote this 30 times not knowing how to explain or shape the sentences but here goes nothing

Pop, one pill in the morning.
This one will make you happy

Pop, one pill at lunch.
This one will make you numb.

Pop, one pill at night.
This one will make you sleep.

Pop, another, whenever.
This one, will calm your heart,
Make you get out of bed in the morning,
Make your work harder,
Make you concentrate,
Make you
Make you
Make you

Alice feels jealous, her pills make her larger or small
But not happy.
But Alice doesn't know,
After every pill,
Headache,
Nausea,
Dizziness,
Fatigue,

Alice feels, but I don't

Three hundred sixty-five days and some other dozen
After pills
Slowly but surely
I started feeling again
Sadness had a taste
And so did food
Laughter had a meaning
and so did tears.

And If you ask me what I remember of that time,
I'll tell you, not much.
It is no way to live, when you live numb
When you should feel things, but you don't.

When the struggle is no longer sadness, but the lack of it
When it is not finding happiness, but not feeling it..

Another three hundred sixty five days and some dozen
I feel things on my own
Get out of bed on my own

After pills,
I pray nothing gets in my way of feeling things on my own.