Hi It's Haliyah: Poems

385 · Apr 2015

Monday I

Hi It's Haliyah Apr 2015

Monday I

A day like any other
I am your nightmare

Slither down the canyons
Walk the haunted halls
Break open all your walls

Drip, drop,
down
Drip, drop,
beautiful down
Stained a wedding gown
Deep red, dark blue
Why couldn't it be you?

377 · Feb 2015

Before

Hi It's Haliyah Feb 2015

Before

I miss the shine before the rain
I hear the sobs before the pain
I feel the flame before the burn
And make mistakes before I learn

I know melody until a song
I know I'm right until I'm wrong
I know I'm innocent until I feel relieved
And I'll miss you long before you leave

377 · Mar 2016

Waiting

Hi It's Haliyah Mar 2016

Waiting

5 minutes
and maybe 30 seconds
until the world explodes,
until we run, like mice in maze, to the next place,
and the next, and the next...

5 minutes
and maybe 30 seconds
until second period.

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Wrote this before second period the other day,
idk just something I felt was worth saving somewhere, like a lucky penny tucked inside your pocket.
Love ya :)

376 · Sep 2015

If Angels Fell for Devils

Hi It's Haliyah Sep 2015

If Angels Fell for Devils

She's always looking past the glass,
into the vacant skies
brimmed with thunder clouds.
So feverish for beauty she can't avow,
and sick with all the lies.

He's never palpable,
a ghost at the table
poisoning his lovers and their wine.
Slithering up the puppet strings,
like a snake on a vine.

She spends days in the grim,
dancing in ballet shoes
on top of broken boards...
For him.

374 · Apr 2015

Sometimes We Bleed, and Sometimes We Fall

Hi It's Haliyah Apr 2015

Sometimes We Bleed, and Sometimes We Fall

Sometimes we can just sit down
And
Bleed
Sometimes we just need
One more hand
(Maybe a few hundred more)

Sometimes we stand up
And
Fall
Sometimes we need more time to scrawl
A moment for this masterpiece we planned
(So what if it's just the first line)

367 · Jan 2015

Broken: The Condemned House

Hi It's Haliyah Jan 2015

Broken: The Condemned House

Broken bones, broken glass
Bodies are buried, hearts reap ash
Life is a battlefield
We watch magic
We watch it rise
This magic fog that captivates our eyes

The drought comes slow, but the fire comes fast
We're burning alive!
We're burning alive!

Broken bones, broken glass
Bodies are buried, souls are sparking on the pavement
Life is a game
The silence is the glass between us
That refuses to shatter
Our tongues... hopelessly in tatters

The drought comes slow, but the fire comes fast
I'm burning alive!
We're burning this world!

362 · Mar 2015

Free

Hi It's Haliyah Mar 2015

Free

Like fish
That tickle my toes
Like a wish
That no one else knows

I'm the girl who spent her last token
On a game that was broken

The bugs
That **** my blood
The shower without a plug
That bears the unbearable flood

I'm the girl who hid in her heart
Until he broke it apart

360 · Apr 2015

Fly

Hi It's Haliyah Apr 2015

Fly

You wouldn't notice him
Looming in the doorway
Or plastered to your wall

He's a little to dark
A little to ready
To annoy you with his constant buzz

They're high on jealousy to taste his life
It is poison for which we infants are to pure
To ever taste.
They don't pity his disease though it has no cure

So when it's over,
When I still love him, he'll step
Under his spotlight, and only I
Can cry.

353 · Feb 2015

Farewell

Hi It's Haliyah Feb 2015

Farewell

My blank, unwavering sky
Against your whispers
Soft, illuminating

The sun closed up it's face
To let the night keep up it's deadly pace
We were without light
Without time and space

Age has pulled the skin
Tight across our bones
Accept the daily loss, the wins
Those smiles sunk us like stones

353 · Jan 2016

The Season of Silence

Hi It's Haliyah Jan 2016

The Season of Silence

Time falls like leaves in Autumn.
Red. Brown. Gold.
Beautiful,
but mourning the loss of something new.
It's those fleeting moments
of smiles and laughter that make us the saddest.
It's getting used
to the mounds of silence
just have it blown away
by a gust of wind.

352 · Nov 2014

When We're Old

Hi It's Haliyah Nov 2014

When We're Old

When we're old
The world will
Taste sweeter

When we're old
We can share
The sunrise

While we're young
The world is sour
And sweet, candy

While we're young
We'll share an argument
And a kiss

352 · Feb 2015

Between

Hi It's Haliyah Feb 2015

Between

There's a rhythm
To our breaks
          A momentary pause in our song
There's the words gone wrong
That still skip on the beat
          A stone on water

There's no hinting
To a hidden truth
Just a shard of words
         Written in red lipstick
So someone reflects
         Between each s p a c e

346 · Apr 2015

Waiting

Hi It's Haliyah Apr 2015

Waiting

Slipping, slipping, slipping
Away.
Heart tickling and tripping
Over blood that rushes through the quiet.
Just a ticking pulse, waiting for the last riot.

Tick, tick, tick
Infinity.
Mind roaring and racing quick
Through the deep, crevices and cracks.
Just closing slowly, waiting for the encroaching black.

345 · Nov 2014

Be My Death

Hi It's Haliyah Nov 2014

Be My Death

Be my infinity
Take my past
And put in the ground

Be the darkness
When I go to sleep
And swallow me up

Be my escort
Into the end
And be gentle with my soul

332 · Jan 2015

But We Don't

Hi It's Haliyah Jan 2015

But We Don't

I could be broken,
Beaten,
Burned....
But. I'm Not.

The mist could catch
The corners of my dress
You could see the sleeping beauty
But. You. Don't.

I could live lies,
Hiding,
Horrified....
But. I. Don't.

We could die,
Fading into nothing.
We could walk
On golden roads...
But we don't.

332 · Jan 2015

Deadly Heart

Hi It's Haliyah Jan 2015

Deadly Heart

A deadly heart
That opens to the sky
Beckoning with art
Vile beneath what our eyes
Have chosen to see

A deadly heart
That clamps with the moon
And rips us apart

A deadly heart
That cries with the rain
For a day
Without pain

My heart was taken by death
And made evil
To steal up your breath

331 · Apr 2015

Pure

Hi It's Haliyah Apr 2015

Pure

It could be a crippling affliction
Or a twinkle in my stars.
The truth is, I don't mind some scars.
It could all be pure fiction.

Maybe it's my final call.
Maybe it won't pass my lips.
It's got me pressed against a wall
Inside this sinking ship.

It could be hello
Or a quiet goodbye.
The truth is, I don't even know.
It could all be a lie.

328 · Jan 2015

Not Quite a Stroll

Hi It's Haliyah Jan 2015

Not Quite a Stroll

Moving down the lane
Straining my brain
Someone is screaming not to move
But I've got something to prove

Stamping my feet
Grinding my heels
Somehow I'll get down this street
Even if I give into the devil's deals
Even if my hand never heals
No matter how awful it feels

Stopping at the red light
Promising I'll move before the night
It's all I can do
If I ever wan't to reach you

328 · Nov 2014

Needles

Hi It's Haliyah Nov 2014

Needles

You left a seed in your wake
When you pitter-pattered through my heart
And so it writhes and squirms inside me
As it’s born from in its shell
And it pounds against my ribs, painful,
Like a smile

324 · Dec 2014

Stepping Off the Doorstep

Hi It's Haliyah Dec 2014

Stepping Off the Doorstep

Paint over the stain
In this old home
Plaster over the pain
You don't let the tears roam

Is it worth
All the time you waste mourning
Until your swallowed by the Earth?

Carpeted floors
Absorb all the sounds -your dying moans-
All that blood, all that pain you bore

Is it right
That you fade into the night
While they set your picture on top of a black box
In the spotlight?

324 · Nov 2014

Erased

Hi It's Haliyah Nov 2014

Erased

I had words here before
They were just ramblings really
But still, they were more

I had words here
But why not just pretend they were never there
Why not rid myself of another fear

I had words, but they were put down, laid to waste
I had words, but they were disgraced
I had words, but they were erased

322 · Jan 2015

Oops, I Swallowed the Key

Hi It's Haliyah Jan 2015

Oops, I Swallowed the Key

I lost the song
That circled my head.
It feels so wrong
Could it all be dead?

I forgot my muse.
I put out my fire,
But is it really something I could lose?
Do these things expire?

You failed me,
Once, twice, perhaps for infinity.
Is there something that I didn't see?
Is there another key?

320 · Jan 2015

Red

Hi It's Haliyah Jan 2015

Red

A haze
Hanging on your words
A daze
Lost yourself in anger

Glass heart
A satisfying clatter
Glass house, all falling apart

Lick the blood
Off your lips
The crimson color drips
The shameless color floods

320 · Apr 2015

Any Time Now

Hi It's Haliyah Apr 2015

Any Time Now

Draw a breath,
Getting closer now.
Let it go,
And you're practically hugging death.

All the time
Between getting it and letting it go
Won't slow your climb.
Sorry if you didn't want to know.

You can pick up your feet
When this is all finished and read,
And forget all about that friend you have to meet
As soon as you're dead.

314 · Jan 2015

Turns

Hi It's Haliyah Jan 2015

Turns

I feel
This turning deep inside my chest.
Their dancing steals
My heart from it's nest.

Wildflowers.
Swarms of white
Below the golden light.

I feel
This spinning inside my soul.
The bruises have begun to heal,
And something's filled the hole.

312 · Nov 2014

Missing

Hi It's Haliyah Nov 2014

Missing

I miss you
You break me
And stain me too

I miss your touch
Warm starlight,
Not asking too much

I miss your songs
When they drifted through me
And put aside my wrongs

I miss you.
A wisp of thought, an inspiration.
I think your broken too.

311 · Apr 2015

My tree, My Morning, My death

Hi It's Haliyah Apr 2015

My tree, My Morning, My death

I like popcorn
Even when it's stuck in my teeth
I like my shoes, though they're old and worn
I like my little tree, though there's never enough shade underneath

I like the rain
Especially when I'm in pain
I like the mornings better alone
Especially when my heart has a heavy tone

I hate death
Every time I need to sleep
I hate feeling out of breath
When I'm swimming in the deep

309 · Nov 2014

I Am

Hi It's Haliyah Nov 2014

I Am

I'm five blocks
Stacked inside a hole
Pick me a part, block by block
Just don't go looking for a soul

I'm discarded paper
Secrets torn apart
So they could hide
Safely in my heart

I'm bullets in a gun
Crashing headfirst into everything
Tearing through myself
With just a dying sting

I am empty air
I am what they never see
I am, simply, me

307 · Jul 2019

Burn Me

Hi It's Haliyah Jul 2019

Burn Me

i can’t i believe i let you crawl inside my bones,
let you make a home
out of splintering self-worth and shaky breaths.
self-immolation,
i let you take me over like a fire.
burn up my words before you even listen.
use me up until there’s nothing left, just fuel for your addiction.
still i know i’m the sick one,
cause my hands are always shaking,
and i’ve got kaleidoscope vision.
cause sometimes i miss you for hours
and i replay every kiss, every lie,
until they start to taste the same.
cause it’s been a month, and i’m losing everything.
i think my keys are still in the door,
and i think i left my heart on your floor.
and i’m not saying i want you back, i’m just saying
i was doing fine with the wool over my eyes.
but you laid this house of suspicion on top of your lies,
built me in with no way out,
cause you’re a fire,
and my soul is only free once you burn it down.

#love #breakup #sad #liar #lies #heart #heartbroken #fire #relationship #kiss

301 · Apr 2015

Lucky Feet

Hi It's Haliyah Apr 2015

Lucky Feet

My foot was stuck.
I had no luck.

My foot was cut, -was struck
right off my leg!-
I had no luck.

But another step and I swear you could've heard
My dying scream from anywhere.
I have all the luck in the world.

297 · Jan 2015

Dawn is Coming

Hi It's Haliyah Jan 2015

Dawn is Coming

Dawn is coming so open your eyes
To the only gold that won't feed you lies

Dawn is coming so spread your arms
To the only love that does no harm

Dawn is coming so bloom
For the only one who's watching you,
In the only day untouched by gloom

297 · Feb 2016

Tell Me

Hi It's Haliyah Feb 2016

Tell Me

Tell me
How to be pretty
How to be smart
How to be selfless
Or tell me
How to stop eating for a ******* week
How to cheat without getting caught
How to act like anything ******* matters
Just keep telling me how to ******* lie.

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Just venting.

Love ya <3

296 · Jan 2016

Wouldn't Dream of It

Hi It's Haliyah Jan 2016

Wouldn't Dream of It

Tired and sleepy
aren't the same thing

Sleepy
is when he kisses her on the cheek
Tired
is when it's too much to speak

Sleepy
is when whispered in her ear
"sweet dreams my love"
Tired
is when she cried into her pillow
"he is my nightmare"

Tired and sleepy
aren't the same thing

294 · Apr 2015

Dear Life

Hi It's Haliyah Apr 2015

Dear Life

Dear life,
If you could permit me one request
-my first and very best-
If I could ask only one, it'd simply be:
Can you please inspire me?

291 · Jan 2015

Don't Bury Your Soul

Hi It's Haliyah Jan 2015

Don't Bury Your Soul

Screaming in my mind,
Pounding in my heart.
I can't seem to find
Out why I'm falling apart.

I'm so tired of the rhymes
Falling like flame off my tongue.
I can't keep wasting time
Singing the same song I've always sung.

Run away
If you can't stay
With your soul.
But I'd be a fool
To make that hole.

290 · Jan 2015

Maybe They'll Re-heat you?

Hi It's Haliyah Jan 2015

Maybe They'll Re-heat you?

Thirty seconds
Helpless to their hunger
I'm cooking you alive
I reek of lotus petals
You adore my kindness, my warmth

Twenty
Can you see my brain waves?
I tried to tell you
You're such a perfect package
You'd never last long

Ten
Can you ******* flame?
My burning hate
Inflating with your breaths
It's never over soon enough

Five
I am sorry
Two
I
One
Love
Zero...
Maybe they'll re-heat you?

288 · Jan 2016

As the Silence Breaks

Hi It's Haliyah Jan 2016

As the Silence Breaks

I'm scared
of their cannons,
the bullets they tuck inside their corpses.
I'm terrified
they'll take it all before the dawn.
That they'll put out the fire,
the world's last embers of desire.
That they'll pull the breath from our lungs
till we're all just metal machines
with poisonous tongues.
Oh, I'm always saddest
as the silence breaks.

288 · Apr 2015

Wednesday III

Hi It's Haliyah Apr 2015

Wednesday III

A day like any other
I am your soul

You were a bump
In the road, a lump
In my sore throat

If I was an ocean, or a single wave
You'd be the moon.
I'd be your slave.
If I was a day, or just the sighing noon
You'd be the night,
Thoughtlessly turn out the light.

287 · Apr 2015

Now It's in Your Head

Hi It's Haliyah Apr 2015

Now It's in Your Head

Slipping between your ears,
Threaded in your hair,
Making sure that no one hears.
But would they really care?

Foggy memory, but nothing's wrong.
So it seems. 'Till it's the song
Racing the folds of you brain,
And it's back inflicting pain.

Sliding up your arm,
Curving towards your heart.
Plead with it not to tear you apart,
But does that really protect you from harm?

284 · Jan 2015

Bliss Before War

Hi It's Haliyah Jan 2015

Bliss Before War

This is not our fight
Take me on your arm
Let's dance by Night
Let's forget about the hurt and the harm

Darling come with me
Leave behind that growing sea
Come ride with me on the stars
Ignore those old battle scars

We were shrouded
By the clouds
And you placed on my lips, a sudden kiss
It was our last taste of bliss
Before you left me for War

284 · Jan 2015

Out of Sight, Out of Time

Hi It's Haliyah Jan 2015

Out of Sight, Out of Time

A pearl in the folds of black,
In the twinkling blooms of light.
The pocket watch your slowly putting back.
Until it all goes out of sight,
And your blinded by the gold gone over blue.
She is all the rainbows in your memory,
But perhaps a better hue.
She is a pearl in the folds of black,
In the twinkling blooms of light.
Until it all goes out of sight.

283 · Nov 2014

A Dream of His

Hi It's Haliyah Nov 2014

A Dream of His

Dangling on the branch
Burned black
That hangs over the river
Of dreams

I fell into a nightmare
That splashed my face
Waking me -Opening me up-
To drown

It was a flash
-Of my eyes gone white,
A face that wasn't mine-
Before I pulled up to the bank
Beneath the black tree,
Below that burned branch, the curse upon me

280 · Jan 2015

When the Sun Dies

Hi It's Haliyah Jan 2015

When the Sun Dies

Staring as he dies
The world goes still
Only you dare to give your last goodbyes
He bleeds into the horizon, falls behind the hill

Birds are screaming for the moon
To grant us a reprieve
From this time of dying
So some can lay down their arms, and end their grieving

His children wait
One day, two days, for eternity
Some below stay straight
But you tilt with the breeze for all to see
Your love is clear, this sight is fate

273 · Nov 2014

Imagine

Hi It's Haliyah Nov 2014

Imagine

There in the dawn
Was a breath of wind
That fanned across my heart.
And I ached then -as I do now-
To know those words again.
So they could see my ocean of water nymphs
And my sky of flitting fairies.
So they could see the world
I imagine.

269 · Jan 2015

Back to the Beginning

Hi It's Haliyah Jan 2015

Back to the Beginning

The black-hole in my universe
***** me back each time I leave
My soul was born to that
Pavement

From day into night
Free as the starlight
The ache and the rhythm feel so right

The black-hole in my universe
***** me back each time I leave
My feet have pounded circles on the
Pavement

267 · Jan 2015

Old White Dress

Hi It's Haliyah Jan 2015

Old White Dress

Left empty with nothing but dreams.
Pulling at the seams
Of an old, white dress.
It's time to confess.

It was the welcome flood
That pushed her along, left her sprawled
Awkwardly on the ground.
But it was his turn to fall
In his own blood.

It was like candy in your veins,
Like riding a horse without the reins.
Like a a day without rain,
The day he felt her pain.
The last -the only- time he looked into her eyes.

Left empty with nothing but dreams
She's not what she seems.
Like an old white dress.
Those dark stains have much to confess.

266 · Nov 2014

Asylum

Hi It's Haliyah Nov 2014

Asylum

Blank stare,
Poker face
The deadly silence in the air
Drives them out of place

Smiles slip
Like rain, like tears
They are in my grip
I know their sorrow, I know their fears
And I am helpless to watch their sanity rip

They pound me, they want to break me
Moaning about
The sunlight they want to see
But I cannot let them out

Let the pain turn
In for the night
Let it burn
Brilliant light is their last sight

262 · Dec 2014

Sleep

Hi It's Haliyah Dec 2014

Sleep

Sleep
Calling to me
But my hands are click-click-clicking

My head throbs, but
Pain is a small price
For this addiction, my sweet bliss

Sleep
Reaching for me
There's darkness that I need to see
But my mind is tick-tick-ticking

I should crumple the page,
Erase all the words,
But I'm in a foolish age
And their flying from me, free as the birds

260 · Dec 2014

If I Told You

Hi It's Haliyah Dec 2014

If I Told You

If I told you
That I was empty,
Would you fill me up?
If I told you I forgot how to see,
Would you be my memory?

If I told you
That I shattered,
Would you show me the shard that mattered?
If I told you I lost my words,
Would you find them tucked between my lips?

If I was in love with you,
Would you love me too?
Oh, if only I told you...

259 · Nov 2014

Red and Blue, Purple and White

Hi It's Haliyah Nov 2014

Red and Blue, Purple and White

Blue eyes and purple lips
Drowning
Frozen in the ice, on display

Red nails and white tips
Burns tear through my face
Flames dance on my arms

Ice and Fire
Empty and desire
The prophet and the liar