All I need to do is let you go.
When I get that off the road,
I'll be able to take the knives out.
But I can't release once I've lost control.
I let myself believe I could make you happy.
And I turned around too fast, forgetting the spike in my hand.
It went directly into your gut, spilling your blood for me.
It was all too literal to watch.
I'm so sorry. Please forgive me.
To watch you hurt is to look in a mirror.
I feel it where you feel it.
I see it how you see it.
I'm hurting too.
I'm hurting too.
I love you so much, and I keep ******* up.
But being with you made me whole again.
You helped me remember how strong I am.
You're like the ******* force behind my mangled heartbeat.
Mostly, you remind me that I want to live.
I'm so sorry that I keep torturing you.
And I love you.
I love you.

How could you look through all my facets, and still have it in your heart to hurt me?
I've ****** up and thrown my family through the wringer.
I've been told I'm incapable of caring for others.
I've done a lot of things to warrant this torture,
But to you?
I've done nothing but love you with every vibrating molecule of my being.
Is that my downfall?
Not that I can't feel, but that I care too much for everything the moment they enter my life.
Lovin's wreckless, baby. And I love you so much.

Why is it that so many people seem to just exist? They neither progress nor regress, and their place in the universal order seems completely neutral.
Some may even say they're obsolete.

I can't take another day of running into the ground head first trying to catch something that may as well be non-existent.
I cannot look at you anymore with a mirage of love in my eyes when we both know the spark between us was never fed enough oxygen.
I won't allow fear or anger to manipulate what my heart vividly sees.
I will not live in this perpetual ******* darkness while the earth still shines.

All that's left to do is put one foot ahead of the other.

Abuse me, please
Daddy issues, broken hearted, relationships misconstrued
I'll complain and scream for compliments
Anything for you, sweetheart
Domesticate me
Let me share your every need and hate your enemies
I'll take your punches and let you own credit for my successes
Bring out the red and violet undertones in my skin
Scar my beautiful body with your hateful lashes and throw me at the wall
Anything for you, sweetheart
Abuse me, please