I'm sorry for not
letting you
get to me
for not giving
you a chance
to let me down
you just didn’t
deserve that
satisfaction

The sun might be shinning
but I wanna spend most
of my day tucked
in a corner
at the café that
smells like old books
and coffee
while hearing
you telling stories

I love being silly
a child at heart with
a 100 year olds brain
I just can't help it

I'll take one hair and
place it on your lap
which means you are
important to me

I'll pinch your cheeks
while I'm exited
which means you
are precious to me

I'll hold your hand
no matter where we might be
which means I feel
safe around you

You know I was trying to heal
I never stopped trying
even when you were here
I made some changes
along the way
and now …
I am healing
just without you

Don’t think that
your words can pull me
closer to you

Don’t think that
your smiles does
the hard work

Don’t you dare think
I would’ve stayed just
because of how you made me feel

I don’t mind
getting lost
in those eyes
in your existence
******* away
by your charm
catch me
with your
gentle hands
getting lost
got a whole
new meaning

I want to scream and shout
even cry till there’s no tears left
but it's like something is blocking
the gates for the tears
does that mean that
am I over you?

I saw you today
you entered my mind
it’s the way the sun shines
the beautiful shades of blue
up in the sky
birds chirping
all of these
reminds me of your
strong personality
so bright and colorful
you’re like the season of spring
you are in this air

I wonder how you are
I might be crazy or even evil
for hoping you suffer
during this time of corona
not able to work
stay home with her
the one you settled with
instead of waiting for me
we are soulmates
but the kind
that’s not meant
to be together

Today I just want to hear you
say my name
with that teasing voice
see that crooked smile
as I feel the sun burn
on my pale skin
but now you fade away
like the clouds
on this sunny morning
wearing your favorite color
in lace lingerie
on my birthday

Once a day I picture you
in front on me
feeling you next to me
letting you know that I care
how worthy you are
of simple happiness

Once a day I try to find
your eyes, but your hands
always finds me first
pulling me closer
like a tsunami

Once a day I feel that these
butterflies explode into fireworks
because of the way
you say my name

She is a bouquet
in his hands
his smile so big
fascinated by her beauty
feeling lucky
to show her off
to the world
as he walked
around town

Be honest with me
If I’m too much
If I annoy you
please tell me

And if you don’t
then why?
there must be
something

Just one thing
wrong with me
I keep looking
searching for

Just one thing
you must hate
about someone
like me

when it's snowing heavily
kiss me till it's over
and we're covered in white crystals

I saved myself
last minute
before the knock out
pulled a surprise move
you had no idea existed
let Godzilla out
left you there
so you didn't get the change
to knock me out

I look at my hand
once this was yours
and in yours at all times
you liked it that way
I didn't complain

I look at my finger
where your ring used to be
you placed it there with a promise
I never believed it was real
and I was right
it wasn't

She’s like a band-aid
call her when you are hurt
keep her close
she will make you feel better
take care of you
follow you anywhere you go
she will be by your side

Until the day
you are healed
no longer in need of her
rip her off and throw her away
like she was nothing more
than a band-aid

The sad truth is
If you love me
I won’t even be sure
If I love you back

The sad truth is
If you want me
I can’t even let you
I’m not sure what I want

The sad truth is
if you leave
I won’t even feel sad
I’m too broken for love

The old me is gone
this is the upgraded version
you see in front of you
but it’s not fully developed
there has been a delay
because of the pain
struggling with issues
some things still needs
to be fixed before
the launch of this improved version
for now I'm sorry for the glitches
you might come across
thanks for your patience

When the night ends
With a sunrise
That’s him
Showing up
After her darkest time