You told me I would never change
but I learned to put myself before You,
to love and protect myself from You.

I'd like to say that I never loved you, but the truth is, I didn't know what love was.
We create our own concept of love
based on our thoughts of what it is and what it should be.
We learn from our parents, from the books we read, from the movies we watch, and decide for ourselves what we want to receive.
I thought that to keep you happy I had to endure the emotional and physical pain you caused me. And in return you would buy me flowers, teddy bears, chocolates.
That was love.

But that's not what it is anymore.

I look at you and I see myself.
a sad, lonely, naive
version of myself

Lake of confusion
Never did you send flowers
Sky weeps in sadness