How many words does it take to build someone up?
Maybe one, if you're lucky, and if you're happy.
Maybe more if you struggle to believe
that the compliments you receive are true.
Maybe more if you believe that you're incapable
of being
loved.
Liked.
Missed.
But I wouldn't know,
I've no experience.
And how many words does it take to break someone?
This, I can answer with certainty.
It only takes one well-placed word to break someone's mind,
to lose someone,
and that word?
Well, that's
goodbye.

Welcome to the new year
Another year of pain
Of tears
Of trying to be the example
That your siblings look up to.
Another year of depression
Another year of anxiety.
Another year of trying to hold everything together.
But welcome to the new year,
And I can only hope that it will be better than the last.

I realize that you probably hate me.
Don't worry
I hate me too.
You say that you don't,
but I see the anger, the sadness, the disgust
that lives and thrives on the lies
that are told, either for the
protection or self-gain of those who tell
them.
Your disgust thrives on my flesh,
eats into my bones,
leaches into my brain.
Shatters me.
I realize you hate me.
Don't worry
I hate me too.
I draw on my wrists with silver
but
it
comes
out
red.

When is it all right to let go?
The waves of despair are so
Strong, they force me under the
Water of my own heavy tears.
Why does no one hear my desperate
Cries for help to survive this
****** up life?