where I live
now is very hot
it's the dry desert

mountains encircle
the valley where
the rainbows lay

for short breaks
on periodically
sprinkled grass

Never have I ever been kissed by death.
Time to take a shot
Because my biggest adventure
Is when I flirt with my untimely demise.

Wake me up Saturday and
we'll find us a
latter day
Saint.

But you could paint me
vermillion
in a tutu and you too
could find me a
latter day
Saint.

And on Friday
which was a good day for some
they stripped me and hung me.

A martyr could start a religion,
but it's already been done
and
I'm bored anyway.

I stay watching as he takes you out
Walking out the door to the new world
A world where I'm not with you anymore
A world where you're now with him

I stay watching as he holds you tight
I stay watching as he kisses you right
Right where I used to do it
And said you loved it

I stay watching,
It's breaking my heart
I miss you,
I need you.

Never felt I needed you God
And I didn't care,
Never knew how to acknowledge
Something that wasn't there

And back when I was with thugs
I was use to it,
Life threatened, losing friends,
Can't believe I was use to this

But then danger comes to someone
Who you care for,
More than just a bro or another
Punk who went away for robbing stores

I've been stabbed, felt a cold blade
On my throat, and armed men
Outside my door,
Yet still I care for her life more

When I was followed I never
Gave a ****,
But he came stalking her and I went
Through an emotional fit

I felt like a father looking after
His child,
Seconds felt like hours
And steps felt like miles

I haven't felt fear like this for
Any of my brothers on the street,
This must be what happens when
My life and karma meets

Because I can't believe I
Caused this pain to others,
All she wanted was to be safe at
Home with her mother

I guess I grew my heart back,
And I took back a will to fight,
If anything bad happened to her
I couldn't forgive myself that night

I asked you to **** me to keep her safe
And I prayed from within,
And if she's ever in danger
I will pray the same thing again

So God if your there I have
One request,
Her life's more valuable so
Take mine if it suits her best

lend me a home,
or just a shoulder to lean on

is more than enough;
those two things
i can't do by myself,

no matter how badly
i try to believe:

for the heart is in my chest,
i am my own home;

for i already have two shoulders,
i won't be needing another.

but my head is too heavy
because of these sour clouds, my neck
might accidentally break.

It's funny how most people my age
just want to go out and socialize
while the best times of my life
are the ones I spent (and spend) alone in my bed
with melancholic music and closed eyes

I am a Spirit's messenger
through their eye's I show you visions
so you may see hope on a darkened road
of a future up to us to change and hold

I share with you a place of peace and unity
and carry with me their voices
on the winds of four directions

Their strength and wisdom flow through me
so that I may open eye's to understand
the truth in which they give me to see

Together as one we all share this land
and we must all as one stand
side by side hand in hand
to bring balance and harmony
before all is lost in a sickened world forever
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