I've never wanted people who didn't want me.
But I know one day you won't want me,
and I'll still want you.
I'd leave right now if I didn't love you so much,
I make your eyes light up when I say your name.
I'll keep adding scars to my heart as long as you are happy.

I wish your feelings for me wouldn't drown,
but they will.
You'll find a girl who has a stronger heart and a sounder mind.
It's okay,
I love you.
I'll stay with you for now.

This is a thank you letter,
but also an apology
for how long it took me to thank you
for all the times you never asked me
how I was doing,
or if I’d eaten today.

I forgot to take my medicine
and the world is spinning much too fast.
I just need it to stop.
I had half a piece of bread
and one slice of an apple for three days.
Thank you for not asking.
Thank you for not wanting to know.

Thank you for not caring about me,
as much as I cared for myself
because I’ve healed without you,
and now I don’t need you to move on.

My stomach is full of chocolate
and the world’s still moving too fast,
but I think I’ll be okay.

I just wanted to say thank you,
for never giving a **** about me.

Take me back to your car
where we first moved together in the dark.
I can still feel you under my skin,
just after I told you
I’d never let you in.

Sometimes I get so empty
I think I'm floating
I'm so light,
I think, perhaps,
the feathers will love me.

I am not okay
but I will be okay.
I'll try not to stick my head in the oven
and close the door.
I will be okay,
without you.

Just wait a little, would you,
darling?

You cannot fix me.
You cannot fix me.

I hate when writer's write in lists and tell me what to do. Writers are sad and cracking and I don't want to live my life like them.

2. I am a writer. I am not whole.

3. I will not tell you what to do.

4. Why the **** did I leave him?

5. Do not take advice from writers.

I. You will fall out of love with him. Watch Blue Valentine and cry for two weeks. It happens to the lucky ones, too.  

II. You are the most enthralling creature on the planet. Beautiful and vivacious and enrapturing. You were all of these things before he told you that you were.

III. We might die tomorrow. Don't act recklessly but don't hold back. Be courageous and find a balance. You need balance. Love him back, say you're sorry, you won't end up like your parents.

IV. He will fall in love with her. She is not the problem. You do not hate her. You will fall in love with your soulmate when he's ready to encounter your beautiful soul.

V. He's the best thing to ever happen to you. You're sorry you had to leave. It's better this way. It makes the bitter winter hurt a little less.